My Mosaic

Hi @Bow

I'm sorry you had a bad experience with your pdoc today hun and they didn't even ask you how you are. No wonder you feel distraught.

Hoping the rest of your day goes a little better hon

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I just don't know what to do now. I can not go back to him. It is a complete waste of time. He rambled for the entire hour I was there, I could hardly hear him and he tried to teach me some breathing and relaxation techniques, of which I am well aware of. He won't acknowledge my eating disorder, just says I need to deal with the underlying issues of which I just need to lay my past to rest... by using relaxation.
I almost did not make it home. It was a scary drive. I did stop and call a helpline, but I am still not feeling safe. I'm at a lose.

if he won't acknowledge my Ed, my gp can't write up this eating disorder plan, so I can't see this new psychologist. My current psych won't see me anymore, so where on earth does that leave me??? I just can't anymore.

Hey @Bow, I'm really sorry to hear things have been so tough lately trying to access the support you need. I imagine it would've felt really disheartening reaching out and having that unhelpful, invalidating response. I know you've mentioned you're not feeling safe, and I'm wondering if there's anything you might be able to do to help you feel safer? Going for a walk maybe?

Please don't hesitate to reach out for more support if you need to- I know you tried a helpline earlier and didn't find it helpful, but I'm wondering if there's another service you could try if what you're feeling now starts to become too distressing? Please take good care and be kind to yourself 💝

Why is the system so very broken? A person who wants help now has to end up in hospital to receive the help they want or pay enormous amounts of money and wait a very long time.
this psychiatrist obviously is not going to work for me anymore. I won't go again. A referral to the PHN is going to take time, who knows how long and to see a private psychiatrist costs so very much and I just don't have that kind of money. I've been told again that community mental health won't see me. They are only short term crisis support. I just don't understand. I can not get in to get psychological support for my eating disorder until it has been officially diagnosed and I can't get that. I have an appointment booked with a new psych which I will now have to cancel. My current psych won't see me so now I will have no one at all.
I feel so angry inside. So upset. So hopeless. So misunderstood. And no one can do a dam thing to change it.

I'm sorry you have to go through all of this @Bow

I don't have any suggestions or ways I can help. All I can do is to let you know that we are here to support you and try and help you through all of this any way we can.

Sitting with you sweetheart

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ive had the police here for ages this afternoon and then the pac team
I just want to crawl into a ball and cry. Disappear.

Sitting with you @Bow and I am so sorry your day has been so incredibly hard.

Hugs, love and prayers

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Sitting with you @Bow 💞🤗🌸 I know you can do this.

Emelia

Anyone around tonight?

Hey @Bow , I just saw your post from earlier - so sorry you're dealing with all of that, and feeling so let down by the services that are meant to help. I'm floating around for a little bit longer - and sitting with you as long as I'm here