My Mosaic

Thanks @Snowie @Eve7

I really don’t know what is going to make things better. Can things even get better???

The other lady that came out, she apologised for Sunday. That I had reached out and that no one had come out for a visit. She said it was good that I had at least called. Meh.

I think our MH is like a roller coaster @Bow Sometimes we go really well but there are always those dips. Where things get really low and we feel like there is no way out besides giving up on ourselves.

I can't answer if things get better, but I just hope that with things in place, those dips are not as severe.

There is some part of you that wants to keep going. You wouldn't continuously reach out for help if you didn't want too. Reaching out for that help is really hard, and you show the courage and bravery to do it.

All I can say is that we are here for you through this continuous ride that seems never ending.

Yeah it’s tricky eh @Birdofparadise8 ideally you would want to get in and provide early support… ya know, early intervention. Maybe it would prevent people becoming so acute. But with so many people who are already acute I guess all the staffing and funding and resources go to them. Just the result of an underfunded, over crowded and over worked and very broken mental health system

im hearing ya with the pdoc thing. It’s super hard to find one. And when you do they have such long waits and are super expensive. Hope you find someone soon who is suitable for you.

most of my day has been okish. I took a rest day. No exercise. I lay in bed for a while, watched a movie. Did some painting. Then comm mh came and did a home visit. That wasn’t so ok. And I have an appointment with them tomorrow which I ain’t looking forward to.

how’s your work day been?

Reading what you said @Snowie i think having trust in our mental health supports is so important. Trust that when those dips start, that you can reach out for extra support and know that it’s going to be there.

When I seen my case manager last week and told her that I had a plan and had been thinking about when, she turned around and said will I see you in a week or a fortnight. I need to be able to trust that when I tell her stuff like that, I know she is going to have my back- and she didn’t. And that feels really shit.

thank you for being here. I truly appreciate it. Everyone

@Bow I couldn't agree more. We have to be able to trust our supports with so many things, especially with our deepest thoughts and feelings.

I'm sorry she didn't have your back hon. That just isn't good enough. Can you speak to your psych or pdoc about how you felt when she dismissed you?

You so deserve that trust and support.

Always be here for you 💕💕

yeah I know it’s a tough one oh @Bow

@it’s hard I’m seeing a psychologist I don’t have to pay for right now but next year I will and that’s a lot of money to pay weekly plus a pdoc.

Do you see a psychology and pdoc in community?

Also what is CM like?

Oh what happened @Bow did they say something or do something wrong?

I hope your feeling a bit better.

Work has been very busy. I finish at 7:30 so that’s good.

@Snowie I’m a bit wary about talking to them about my CM. They all work on the same team. Maybe if it comes up with my psychologist, my CM isn’t in that appointment, but she is with my pdoc.

Yeah I see a psychologist and a pdoc at comm mh @Birdofparadise8 they are both ok. But my previous psychologist there was heaps better.

my Case Manager? She is ok. She has been better though. I believe she is a psychologist. She is young. She does all sorts of things. I usually see her weekly and she checks in on me on a variety of things, nothing is really off limits if I want to talk to her about things. She will liaise with my pdoc and psychologist too. And my gp, dietitian and eating disorder pdoc. Like tomorrow she is gonna call and see if I can get in to my gp sooner than I got an appointment for. She makes sure the chemist has a current list of meds, that they are Webster packed and only provided a 3 days supply to my mum. She can make me go to hospital if needed. She knows a fair bit about ED treatment etc and knows what to look out for, what I need to be doing etc. I’m sure there are other things too.

just really difficult conversation was had I guess. Lotsa questions

Hey @Bow. I just want you to know that I am reading along. I’m sorry the home visits today was so rough for you.

I really can’t say much else, sorry, I just don’t have the ability right now.

I am sitting with you though

Thanks @Captain24 i appreciate that. I know things are rough for you, but please please take care of yourself.