My Mosaic

Ah, okay that sounds very helpful @Bow

I wish I had something like that, but I don't know how to get it.

It's good you have another person to talk to.

You have a pdoc and an ED pdoc how does that work?

@Birdofparadise8 My ED psychiatrist is actually a professor. My gp put me on to her when my ED first came out. We were desperately looking for a psychiatrist to make an ED diagnosis for me and we finally got on to her.

She is really well know for her research into eating disorders so is top of her field. I only ever see her via zoom cause she doesn’t have a clinic or anything. We just touch base, talk about how I am doing, she offers support and strategies. It’s nice to have someone to talk to that has so much experience and knowledge cause not many do! But have meet her a few times when I was inpatient for my ED.

And then I have my community mh pdoc. She does my meds. We talk. Etc. just a usual pdoc I guess.

That's good then @Bow

Does she just do therapy-like stuff with you?

Ah okay, that's good.

What are you doing tomorrow?

@Birdofparadise8 Yeah I guess that’s what you’d calll what she does- therapy.

tomorrow- I have an appointment with my dietitian in the morning. And then in the afternoon I have an appointment with my pdoc at comm mh.

Wat you got on?

Sounds nice @Bow

What is your dietitian like?

I have an appointment with my psych, another one about the clinical trial I am starting, uni to do, washing, and I would also like to go for a bike ride. It depends on how long the second appointment goes for.

Do you have to leave for that, or do they come to you? You've mentioned how people have come to visit you. Are they like a social worker or something?

Also, if I'm asking too many questions, just let me know. I'm jus interested in how it all works.

@Birdofparadise8 My dietitian is amazing. She is trained in eating disorders and is trauma informed. So has a good understanding of mental health.
I always use to think a dietitian would just tell you what to eat. But mine does heaps more than that. It’s therapy.
The only negative is that she doesn’t do face to face appointments anymore. Just zoom. Oh and she started charging a gap fee this year too. But she’s worth it.

So I get to stay at home for my dietitian appointment and have to go into community mh for my pdoc appointment.

My CM sometimes does home visits. Sometimes I go to her.
There are all sorts from the community mh team that come to visit me. Like today my CM came and another lady. I think she was a CM too. They also have some people on over the weekends who do home visits to check on acute folks- they have all different roles and positions too.

Nice to hear you have a good rapport with each other.

Yeah, not all dietitians are about the "diet" There are the non-diet dietitians @Bow

That's good you have a few people to help you.

I will probably head to bed now but thank you for chatting with me today. I do hope tomorrow goes well for you.

Good morning @Bow

Hoping your appt. go well today.

Sending lots of love and strength 💕💕

I seen my dietitian this morning. She could really be my psychologist. We spent a good 1/2hr just talking about what has happened over the last 3 weeks since I’ve seen her, none of which was directly food related, but all of which impacts on my capacity to cope and thus affecting my ability to manage my eating. I really felt heard and validated.
She took a lot of notes and is having a phone call with my gp on Monday and I gave her permission to mention everything and anything that I spoke to her about today.

TW? I hope it’s ok to talk about this?

She helped me put into words some of my anxiety around my appointment with my pdoc today. yesterday my CM mentioned that they will probably want to talk to me today about my meds and that cause I stockpile meds and don’t take them as I should then I don’t actually need them. That is far from the truth. It’s no where near as cut and dry as they make it sound. It’s not like I sit there and say to myself I don’t need these meds, I’m just gonna not take them and keep them all. It’s a horrible argument in my head over desperately needing to take them but also desperately needing an out of this horrible life and this is literally the only way I know how. I suffer deeply not taking my meds like I should. I don’t sleep. And if I do, I have horrible nightmares. It’s a huge sacrifice in not taking my meds as I should.
but anyways, my dietitian helped me work all that out and put it into words. And she said that she could tell by my voice how desperately I do need those meds and how significant the fight in my head is.

anyways, I felt like I had a really good appointment. Now for appointment number 2 this afternoon.

I checked my email after my appointment and had an email from the theatre in the city. There is a ballet early next year- Alice in wonderland. Early access tickets were available. I’ve never been to a ballet, but have been to a few shows at the theatre and really enjoy it. So I booked tickets for me and my daughter. Rather expensive but I can’t wait. My mum will make my daughter an Alice dress too!