My Mosaic

All I think about is all the damage that I am doing to her @Jynx

Sending lots of love @Bow . Please don’t be so hard on yourself hon, you’re unwell right now and your d is old enough to understand that.

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@Bow probably not as damaging as you are imagining hun. And besides, what we know about trauma is that what is so important is how much connection and support we receive in the aftermath. Even though it would be super difficult for her to see how much pain you're in, you're also doing stuff to provide nurturing, care, and love to her. You're not abusing her or shutting her feelings down. And you're also modelling to her that it's okay to ask for help, and that we need family and community around us to help us overcome our hardships.

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@Bow wrote:

I did something I shouldn’t of and am in a place I don’t wanna be

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So sad to hear, @Bow 😢

Well done for eating 3 meals yesterday.

Sending hugs... 💜

I had such a horrible nights sleep. Didn’t get off to sleep until well after 1am. I eventually put some white noise on to see if that would help. I haven’t had my meds recommenced and I was in a lot of pain last night- my hips, back and legs. And then when I did get off to sleep I had horrible night sweats and vivid dreams. I kept waking up to myself yelling out.

hopefully mh will come around today

and a year ago today we headed off on our big overseas adventure. Photos popped up on my FB newsfeed. Wish we could go back to that day and have our adventure all over again.

Sorry about your rough night @Bow Hopefully they put you back on your meds quickly so you can ease that pain.

Hoping too that MH come around today and you can get some things sorted for yourself.

It is so sweet that D messaged you last night. I am glad you were able to talk to her too. She is strong like her mother and has the support around her. I know its hard, but try not to be too hard on yourself hon. You are doing the best you can with what you have.

sending love and strength 💕💕

MH guy just came by. His gonna talk to mum and the consultant and hopefully I can go home.

I feel pretty yuck today. Med withdrawal ain’t nice!

Withdrawals still suck. And waiting on discharge paperwork.

@Jynx I started reading Paris Hiltons memoir this afternoon. I liked watching her on the simple life when I was younger. She grew up with undiagnosed ADHD

@Bow oh no way I didn't know that about Paris Hilton! Can relate hahaha. I imagine she's quite an interesting person, I get the feeling the whole 'dumb blonde' thing was just a tv personality, yeah?

Learn anything interesting or cool from her memoir today?