My Mosaic

@Bow I hope you were able to go home today hon 💕💕

I didn’t know either until I started reading her book @Jynx

Yeah I think the dumb ditsy blonde thing was for show. And just being young with lotsa money to splash around.

‘ my brain chemistry craves sensory input. Sounds, images, puzzles, art, motion, experiences- everything that triggers adrenaline or endorphins- that’s all as necessary as oxygen for the ADHD brain. I don’t just love fun, I need fun. Fun is my jet fuel.’

I think it will be an interesting read @Jynx

Yes finally home @Snowie just before 5:30. I couldn’t eat much dinner- withdrawals have left me feeling pretty yuck. I took my morning meds when I got home- neither of them are… stimulants so hopefully won’t keep me awake tonight! But I think one of them is the main cause of my withdrawal symptoms.

comm mh Will apparently call tomorrow and do a home visit. And then I see my pdoc on Friday… as well as my dietitian. I’m heaps anxious and scared about my pdoc appointment.

So glad to hear that you are home @Bow

I hope by having your meds that it does help. Why didn't they give them to you in the hospital?

It sounds like you have support for the next few days which is great. Why are you scared of your pdoc appointment?

@Bow oh my stars that resonates sooooo much! Thanks for sharing! Perhaps I might have to give it a gander my own self haha.

I'm glad to hear that you're home now, hope it's nice to be back in your familiar surroundings. Are you happy the cmh folks are coming to check up on you?

Totally legit to feel nervous about the pdoc appt too. Hopefully it will turn out to be super helpful for you.

Hmm cause what I did involved my medication @Snowie had to give my body a rest I guess. They told me to recommence when I got home. I think the brain zaps have stopped already, which is good. Hopefully I will sleep ok tonight.

im worried about what my pdoc is gonna say about what I did. She will be cranky with me. And just all the questions. All the questions that I have been asked and tried to answer numerous times already.

comm mh just called me. Wanted to make sure I was safe, didn’t have access to anything and let me know they will do a home visit tomorrow.

We could do a book club @Jynx ! Haha

heaps happy to be home. D is attached at the hip. I’m enjoying the snuggles.

yes glad that the team are coming to visit. I appreciate the extra support.

scared my pdoc is gonna take more control away from me

Can understand that @Bow to give your body a rest. Hopefully with the right medication things will settle down for you.

I can understand feeling anxious and scared about seeing your pdoc. I hope she goes gentle on you. Perhaps tell her you have already been asked those questions already.

Does she have access to your records?

I'm glad the comm MH rang to check up on you. That is what they are there for.

D would have been glad you are home. Least you can have cuddles with her 💕

Yeah hopefully will be gentle with you @Bow, like @Snowie said. If she is upset, to me that just says it's cos she cares about you and wants you to be okay. If she didn't, she'd be indifferent or worse. But can also understand that crankiness can feel crappy to be on the receiving end of too.

Have you spoken about the theme of control and how loss of agency impacts you w your pdoc at all?

Aww cuddles with your D sounds super lovely!! 😊💜

Just catching up @Bow.

Im glad you are home and getting extra support.

I hope your appts go ok and that they are gentle and kind to you in your fragile state.

I was thinking of you all day.