why is the public mh system so terrible?????
i seen my gp this morning, she was lovely and understanding. wanted to make sure i was ok after what happened earlier in the week. she wanted to check my sh, but i chose not to, just feel so disgusting and gross and its a mess today after last nigt. she agrees that perhaps its not a good idea to go back to the pdoc i seen on tuesday and that hopefully the comm mh team would at least review my medication. i said thats all i really need at the moment, my meds review, increased, changed or something so that i can hopefully just get up a little bit to be able to manage life a bit more and make therapy work.
after seeing my gp i went to the comm mh appointment. i had a massive anxiety attack while waiting and left. they came and found me. to say i am extremely frustrated with them is an understatment. i expressed my frustration and not seeing any point in being made to come and see them when they arent going to do anything. they gave me phamplets of places that i could go to get some help and suggested that i get a referral to another service to see a pdoc. i explained its the wait thats the issue., i need help now. what does it take for them to listen? to take another hand full of meds or it to be too late? they said they will talk to the team. ive heard that before, they say that everytime and then i hear nothing.
i feel extremely hopeless this afternoon. and its the weekend. i cant live like this anymore.
