My Mosaic

@Bow I hope you are able to get some answers on Tuesday hon. You certainly deserve to have your questions answered before you make a decision.

Having our supports a constant thing is important. Having consistency with those supports is even more important. When my old psych left, it felt like they were leaving me, it felt personal even though logically I knew it wasn't. It is hard for others to understand this if they haven't gone through it themselves.

I heard about the paramedic. Devastating news.

I am okish. Last night was horrible. Not much sleep and lots of flashbacks. Have a really short fuse and hubby has been in the firing line which he doesn't deserve. Just trying to calm down a bit. PRN helping.

I’m sorry last night was so horrible for you @Snowie glad that you can have some prn.

my new psychologist called me shortly after hitting the post button! I will go in and meet her next Wednesday. She assured me that despite it feeling like I was starting again, I’m not. She has had a good chat with my old psych and my CM and has access to my file. She said that she has met me before but it was a while ago. It’s such a relief!

That's so good to hear @Bow ❤️

I just couldn't settle last night @Bow Even with my sleeping meds, they didn't help last night.

My thoughts turned bad. Just couldn't control anything.

I am so happy for you hon. Such great news especially if she has spoken to your old psych and has your file. So much better then having to start all over again. Hopefully only good things can come out of this.

Oh I know how nights like that can be @Snowie its unfortunately how most nights are for me at the moment. I hope tonight is better for you and you can get some much needed rest.

In all honesty I end up going off to sleep some nights wondering if someone will turn up at my door cause I’ve said too much to someone and haven’t reassured them enough that I’ll get through another night.

I feel so relieved that I have an appointment with my new psychologist. But at the same time I’m super anxious about it.

Thanks @Bow Hoping tonight is better too. I haven't slept today so hoping sleep comes easy tonight.

I wonder that too hon. I think sometimes I say too much and expect someone to turn up too. They have in the past so worried about it happening again. Even harder after you have taken your meds, then you seem to blurt out a lot more then you wanted to.

I understand being anxious about it. You so much want it to work and gel with this new psych. I really hope you are able to.

Yep, I’ve had many a visitor too @Snowie

Do you have plans for the weekend?

Not many plans @Bow Emailed my psych just before. Now regret it as I don't want to bother her.

Have a relative staying the weekend. No doubt hubby and him will just drink and chat.

Have you got any plans?

I’m sure you’re not a bother to your psych @Snowie I’m glad that you can email her though. I hope my new psych allows me to email her, I find it really helpful, although she is only in Wednesdays and Fridays, which is annoying.

I don’t really have any plans. My daughter is at her fathers tomorrow all day. I will do my usual, probably stop off at the shops for a bit after dropping her off and then home to get on the treadmill, do some painting and also do my nails. Not much planned for Sunday.

I find emailing my psych helps @Bow She doesn't always respond. I'm not expecting her to, especially with the weekend coming up.

I hope you are able to email your new psych hon, I do believe it helps.

What are you painting at the moment?