My Mosaic

@Bow

Well done on getting to the pdoc today. Sometimes that is such a big deal within ourselves.

I'm sorry you had to go over everything, that must have been hard for you hun.

I can understand completely what you mean about your daughter going to school. I feel the same way with my kids. When they are home they give me purpose and keep me going. With them back to school, I find the days harder too.

Lots of hugs and love hun 💜💜

Hi @Bow

It sounds like the appointment today has taken a lot out of you, let alone what you have been through this week. Recognising that you feel shattered and exhausted today - and knowing that you are healing through some truly heavy things, please take care of yourself today.

I am glad you can find support and connection in this space where you are so valued, and remember to reach out to other support services if and when you need today

Thanks @Former-Member ... @Snowie

what do you do with your days @Snowie forgive me if you've already said, do you work? I'm actually due to see my psych on my daughters first day, I'd like to see her sooner though.

@Bow

No I don't work at the moment hun. I am actually not sure if I would be able to get through a day at work at this stage. My days are normally filled with psych and pdoc appointments and just doing doing things around the house.

I struggle with filling my days but then when my days are busy I struggle too with not having time to myself. If you can understnad that at all!!

When does our daughter start school? My two start this Friday.

Oh I get that @Snowie for sure. Appreciate the distraction that busyness brings, but just don't cope. Sometimes it really is about getting through each hour.... Deep breathing....

my daughters first day is Tuesday. Kinder!

I do some admin work from home, but really struggle to get it done. I can't focus. Takes me hours to get something done which would normally take me 1/2hr.

It is about getting through each hour at times hun @Bow

Some days are ok, some not, they just seem to roll into one another.

Both my kids are in high school so fairly independent. They can get themselves eady in the mornings, I just am the taxi back and forth for them!!

I hope your daughter enjoys kinder hun and she makes some friends. I am sure she will fit right in.

Yes @Snowie hour by hour often. I often lose track of the days, same stuff diff day really.

Offering a loving hug @Bow

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Hey @Bow, I can definitely relate to the feeling of struggling to get up after being knocked down so many times. The more times you're knocked down, the harder it feels, and less point there can seem, to getting back up again. I'm hearing your overwhelm- it's sounding like it might be helpful to take a break and some time out for yourself too, maybe do something nice?

I just wanted to mention too- please know that we email when there's something that causes us concern about you, just to check in and make sure you're safe for now. I understand how important it can be to vent and release a little of what might be weighing on you though, and so I want to encourage you to keep reaching out here too. Wishing you the strength and courage to get through this really tricky and trying time. 💝

Feel like that's all I ever do @TideisTurning , 'take a break', 'some time out for myself'. My days consist of doing not a great deal and the bare minimum.
I'm at an all time low, not sure how much lower I can get. Many tear dropping now days. Sh and Self medicating the days and nights to make them easier.
Ive dreaded the day my daughter starts school, it makes me sad that our time has come to an end, but at the same time, nevermind won't go there.
feeling more and more frustrated and discouraged that the psychiatrist I saw yesterday didnt see the struggle and didn't give me something else. Did I... do I need to write it down- I no longer want to exist.
sorry rambling