My Mosaic

Here for a little while @Bow . But waiting to be called in for my radiation. @WIP has provided very good advice. 🌺

Emelia 💞

Thanks @WIP @Emelia8 appreciate you.

I'm going to go to sleep taken some meds to hopefully knock me out for a while can't do this

Ok @Bow

Please don't take too many meds, just what your prescriptions says. I think sleep will do you good.

Be safe dear bow - you are in my thoughts.

Hey @Bow, I'm hearing you've been struggling a lot and I'm sorry. I'm a little concerned though- I noticed you said you had taken some meds in hopes of knocking yourself out for a while. Sleep is important and I know at times Drs can provide dosage plans for times when their patients have trouble with sleep, however, if you don’t have this from your Dr, please be very cautious, even you have done this before, as this can be very risky and we don’t recommend it.

You mentioned too that you wanted to feel safe- I'm wondering if there's anything that might help create this sense of safety for you? Is there anything else you can think of that might help you ride out this rough wave?

Take care

@TideisTurning I don't know what else to do at the moment, what happened last night has tipped me over the edge.
when is enough enough?? How many times do I need to be knocked down before I just can't get back up again. I'm so broken tonight. I've shut down I'm too scared to go out, I have my pdoc appointment tomorrow and I don't even know how I'm going to get there. I missed a gp appointment cause I was out to it today. Very much on the edge of no return.

please no email, I've called already and I just can't anymore.

Hello @Bow ,

I'm sorry to hear how hard it has been for you recently. You show such great strength and resilience getting through so often but I can really hear the mental and emotional toll you feel it is taking on you. I know you said you have called already and I encourage you to continue to reach out as needed to the crisis numbers you have or via our chat option.
Please take care Bow

Hi @Bow

Please try and see the pdoc tomorrow.honey. I will go with you if you like (well I'll only be a tag away). Even if you need to ask your Mum to drive you because I really think it will be worth it for your health.

When you ask "how many times you have to be knocked down before you cannot get up". You only have to get up one more time sweetie but with the support of your mh team it's just tiny steps taken together.

I truly believe in you and I am so sorry it is this hard for you. When does your little one start school?

Love and prayers

xox

My Mum doesn't drive @Eve7 it will just be me, over an hour away. So much time to get lost in my thoughts.

I can't imagine having this conversation with him tomorrow, how can I tell him? How do I tell a strange man what another strange man did?

my daughter starts school next Tuesday. I'm suppose to see my psych on the day.

@Bow

I can't tell you what to say but maybe you won't have to at the first visit. Take some good music with you and play it loud.

I care about you very much and I am sure God will go with you tomorrow. Maybe write some notes and give him those.

xox

feel so teary tonight. i need to turn off. gonna go take some extra meds and crawl into bed.

thanks for sitting with me @Eve7 @WIP @Emelia8