My Mosaic

You are not alone @Bow - hugs to you.

@Bow

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@Bow sitting with you hon 💗💗

Sleep is so important, @Bow ...I really hope yours improves very soon 💜

There's no need to try and support anyone else on here, just look after yourself and post what you need for yourself, or stay away if that's what you need, too. Thanks for popping in with the update.

Thank you @Captain24 @NatureLover @Snowie @Eve7 @tyme @creative_writer

I appreciate your kindness.

Still no improvements in my sleep 😩 I’m so frustrated. I’m really scared that the only way to improve my sleep will involve an inpatient stay to change my meds, which I can’t do.

In slightly lighter… cuter news, I picked up a foster cat a couple of days ago. I thought it would be something to invest my time into. His a cute little fluffy boy. Very shy though. He has a medical condition and requires medication twice a day. Once that clears up he will go up for adoption.

That’s awesome @Bow . Something to focus on and to help. I’m sorry about your sleeping though. Hopefully they can find something else that doesn’t involve hospital.

Sending wishes for your sleep and that things improves very soon, @Bow ... 💜

Your existence was but short

You came about in such a horrendous way

And I wasn’t sure how I felt about you

Yet there you were growing inside me.

What was the right way to feel?

What was the correct way to handle the situation?

I had so many different thoughts

So many conflicting notions going round in my head.

If I kept you I would have to tell of the way in which you were conceived

I would have to admit to my mistake that dark eventful night.

But I could not comprehend the other option.

I could not commit to murder of the gift of life.

Would you be a constant reminder of that night? Whenever I look into your eyes would I see him? Would I be flung back to that time and place?

Would the love that I have for you be the same? You would of still been a part of me, a precious life to love none the less.

But God took things into his own hands

Your precious life was not meant to be.

God thought you were too great for this world.

Your life will always be a long list of what ifs.

Questions that I will never know the answer to.

I really have no words for you @Bow other than that I’m sitting with you.