My Mosaic

I have to acknowledge how brave you are to have done that @Bow . Give yourself the credit there.

As for your daughter. I hope she feel better soon!

@Bow I don't think you give yourself enough credit hon. You are one of the strongest and courageous people I have had the pleasure of knowing.

Do what you feel is right for you. Do what you feel comfortable with.

All my love 💌💌

Really don’t know how to do this anymore

Slowly? @Bow - you can only do what you can do.

It must seem insurmountable when you look at the big picture @Bow 😞 I hope you can break the steps forward down into little bits. I move from a day at a time to an hour at a time to 10 minutes at a time. Sometimes 10 minutes is all I can manage, then I go and lie down.

I hope your daughter is a bit better today...?

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@Bow wrote:

She has challenged me to journal something every day from my healthy adult self. Could be just a word, or even ‘my psychologist would say..’ or a full page.

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I like this idea 🙂 It might work for bad depression too...I like the idea of just one word. Hope you can manage something 💜

Daughter is better today @NatureLover but stayed home again today as she did have a fever last night. She’ll be back to school tomorrow.

I didn’t manage to do the task that my psychologist set me last night. I didn’t know what to write. I don’t know what my healthy adult self would say…. What it sounds like. I’ll try again tonight.

Today has been hard. My mum isn’t coping very well with everything. She is heaps worried about my step dad. Concerned that he will get pneumonia cause he is bed bound, it’s all down hill if that happens. The hospital palliative care called today and I have to go pick up a commode chair tomorrow. I think… no she said she is, disappointed in the outcome of the palliative care visit on Tuesday. She is frustrated with how slow things happen. But we got some additional meds today which will hopefully make him a bit more comfortable and also increase his appetite.

My chest feels really heavy tonight

i feel so incredibly irritable and on edge

lots of negative energy flowing through my body

dont trust what my hands are capable of

its not feeling ok

far far from it

not ok

scared

Hey @Bow ,

I hear how hard it is right now. I read what the negative voices are saying. Yet, there is a part of you that knows these are lies.

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I want you to know we hear you. You are not alone.

Just hold on. Hold onto hope. Just hold on.