My Mosaic

Want to cry at how exhausted I am

want to just sleep and not ever wake

disappear

noone will even notice

I hear that it feels that way @Bow - I wish I could take the pain away but I can't. I can only sit with you and hold your hand.

@Bow Am sad to hear about your strong SI 😞

Sending wishes that it eases and your pain gives you some relief... 💜

Thanks for always stopping by @NatureLover 💕

how are you today?

I want to try and do some things with my daughter today. We are about to head out to Kmart. I’d love to go to the beach later this arvo…. I like the beach of an evening. She also wants to bake some cookies.

An evening at the beach sounds magical to me @Bow - I haven't been to a beach for well over 15 years 😞 There's beaches about 90 minutes' away but I can't drive that far due to the agoraphobia. I hope it proves a nice distraction for you...and the cookies and shopping too 💜

I had a friend over to help me yesterday and I managed to sort 11 boxes from under the house and throw out about 80% of the contents. Actually the contents are still here waiting to be taken away, so am a bit stressed with having to sort and put away and take photos to list on local free sites, but at the same time am really pleased with the work done.

Hoping today is a better day for you... 💜

Wow well done @NatureLover !! 11 boxes is a massive effort you should be heaps proud!
Are you wanting to sort and list things on free sites? Or is the fact that it’s there waiting to be taken away an issue?

We have just been to Kmart and are now having a cold drink at a cafe. It’s going to be hot here today.

Home from the shops and I’ve crashed on my bed. I am so unbelievably tired. I hate this.

@Bow least you made it to the shops. At least you accomplished something.

I know the feeling of being so exhausted yet sleep does not come.

Aww, thanks for your encouraging message dear @Bow ❤️

Yes, I need to take photos and list things on the free sites. Plus the stuff waiting to be taken to the opp shop is a stress...I think I'll put it in my neighbour's shed till I have a few boxes ready to take. Didn't achieve much yesterday. I've changed the extra 1 hour to an extra 15 minutes per day, hoping to get into the routine.

Sounds like you were exhausted after your outing yesterday...hope today goes better. How are you sleeping at the moment? Sending much 💜

I know that feeling of having things sitting around that you want to discard…. And needing to either drop them off at the op shop or list them for online.

15mins is still a good effort @NatureLover! keep going at it!

I was so exhausted yesterday. I didn’t even have the energy to get on the treadmill… which is something. I tried to have a nap in the afternoon but I just tossed and turned. My eyes were all puffy and sore, as was other parts of my face. I ended up taking my meds really early, as well as some melatonin and mum made up an oil blend to put on my feet and I went to bed at 7pm. I slept ok until about 3am.
I really haven’t been sleeping well the last couple of weeks. Taking ages to get off to sleep despite an increase in my meds- I’m really desperate for something to knock me out of a night.
Disappointed that we didn’t get to the beach yesterday. And today community mh are coming by to check in on me.
💕