My Mosaic

@Bow 💕🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗💕

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@Bow wrote:
Yet painfully I know it will never arrive

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I'm another one here to say that things do improve @Bow

I spent 3 years in bed, intensely suicidal. Yet life is better for me now than it was before the nervous breakdown. A lot of that was the healing I got when I faced and worked through the childhood (lifelong) trauma and abuse from my parents. You have to go through hell before you can come out the other side.

You can do it, @Bow 💜

another night of very little sleep. its so frustrating being so tired yet not being able to sleep. i called my case manager this morning to let her know that i am really not in a good way today. exhausted, very high levels of anxiety and SI. she suggested i go try and have a sleep, i tried but i couldnt sleep so got up and got on the treadmill, stupid really when im already so exhausted. but it kept me safe. kept me safe from doing something stupid in that moment. but now here i am, still high SI. she called again just now to check in with me and she also called my mum.. sigh.

@Bow 💌💌

@Bow , does your shakti mat work?

I lay on it for a good 1/2hr today @tyme hard to relax when I have so much anxiety, but it filled 1/2hr of time.

@Bow , I know what I believe, but it's not for me to say here.

Consider what your inner being and spirit tells you.

What does the Bible say? That might give you clarity.

You are NOT alone. There IS a way to light.

My pastor use to always tell me no @tyme i always believed that he said that to try and convince me not to do it. But I believe god would have mercy on the suffering and I could always take it all and then seek forgiveness.