My Mosaic

I seen my case manager this morning @tyme

Would you like to talk about the appointment? @Bow - no pressure though of course.

@tyme I had every intention of asking if we could go for a walk instead of sitting back in one of those rooms… I had already spent nearly 4hrs there this week with exposure therapy. But there was a lot going on in reception area that I didn’t get the chance and then we were in the room.

She asked all the usual questions

- sleep? Despite the med increase I am still not sleeping. Still awake at midnight last night. She was gonna speak with pdoc.
- food intake? Still only doing one meal a day. Trying to at least stay hydrated.
- SH? Still doing it almost daily. Sometimes I do it while dissociating. Wounds are ok at least.
- SI? Yep, still having a lot of them. She asked if it was any different to before, the intensity? nope, it’s not. It’s the same.

She asked about my daughter- she’s fine. Settled back into school.
She asked about the social outings group I’m connected to, I told her I just can’t manage that at the moment. My anxiety is terrible. Suppose to do bowling tomorrow. I can’t.
And then I talked a bit about what’s going on with my step dad. She listened.

what else can she do???

Help? Maybe an ear to monitor how things are? @Bow

We are heading off to the Peer Group Chat which starts in 7pm. Would you like to join? https://www.sane.org/peer-support/peer-group-chat

How can anyone really help though? I don’t feel like there is anything anyone can do anymore

Possibly not @Bow - maybe it is up to you now? You are strong enough to take the reins. It's scary at first, but it will be worth it.

It will come @Bow . I've seen it. I'm no one special. I also once thought there was no hope, yet I'm here to tell the story that I was wrong.