My Mosaic

Yes, I remember when I used to dissociate, I learnt as a young child in an abusive family, and it's your safe place where nothing can touch you. It's a desperate need to go there. So I do understand, I think @Bow 😞

Funny, in writing this I've realised I haven't dissociated now for many years. I got enough healing through working through my trauma in therapy over many years I think. Not full healing of course, but enough.

I really hope you can too, dear @Bow 💜 It's so incredibly hard, I know 😞

I'm wondering, could you allow yourself to dissociate at night, when things are the worst? That way you wouldn't be fighting the dissociation all the time....might be a bit of relief and help you to fight it in the daytime? @Bow

I try to fight it as much as I can during the day @NatureLover couple of weeks ago my daughter walked in when it was happening, I don’t like her to see me when I am like that. Bad things happen when I dissociate though. There have been a number of occasions where I have SH, which has been really scary.

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@Bow wrote:

Bad things happen when I dissociate though. There have been a number of occasions where I have SH, which has been really scary.

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I'm sorry, I didn't realise @Bow 😞

Do you not realise you're SH-ing when you dissociate?

Nope, no idea @NatureLover when I come back I notice things. No recollection of doing it. It’s scary and doesn’t make sense.

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@Bow wrote:

Nope, no idea @NatureLover when I come back I notice things. No recollection of doing it. It’s scary and doesn’t make sense.

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Yes, that is scary @Bow . Thanks for teaching me something today 😞

Sending hugs 💜

I hope today has been kind to you and you have been able to stay grounded today @Bow.

Thinking of you

Todays been really bad

Hugs @Bow - would you like a chat?

Hugs @Bow ❤❤