Thank you @NatureLover @Emelia8 for your kindness, it truly is appreciated.
I attended both appointments today. Gp appointment this morning where I showed her what I’ve been doing to myself. I was already not in a good place and I just felt like she lectured me. Anyways she dressed them and I left.
seen my psychologist this afternoon. I took some drawings and journaling in to show her. I’m already not big on words at the best of times…. And really struggled today. We had put exposure therapy in a box for this week and just focused on getting through this week with the hope things would pick up, but unfortunately they aren’t. Things have been worse this past week than they have in the lead up. I’m not sleeping much, not eating much and barely getting through the days. I have asked to pick things back up on Monday with the exposure therapy. I’ve opened that box up now and I want to finish it, but my psychologist is concerned about my constant dissociation. It’s happening in sessions and happening a lot at home, I’m very much over it and tired of trying to fight it off. Promised my psychologist that I would go to the ed if I was feeling unsafe though.
im trying my hardest to hold it all together at home. My mum was in hospital yesterday again, the third time in 2 weeks for a blood nose. I usually take her down but it was heaps worse this time, pouring out, so had to call an ambulance. Triggering for me.
I’m feeling really flat tonight. Emotional. I see my case manager on Friday.
that’s all. Sorry I am not around for others. I can’t be here though. I say things that upsets people and I get into too much trouble. Thinking of you all
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