My Mosaic

I am so sorry @Bow for what they did to you. Both as a child and later as an adult.

One thing is for certain though, and that is that "you are most certainly NOT trash"!

Please ignore that loud and insistent voice in your head that is trying to tell you that you are somehow to blame for what happened. You were and are blameless, and you were a victim. Now .. you are a couageous survivor of an awful crime.

That nagging little voice in your head is convincing you that you are worthless. Its simply not true. But only you have the ability to turn that thinking around. With the help of your therapist and especially the prolonged exposure therapy. You are doing the hard yards right now. And yes, I really do know how hard it is. But dont give up now. Its worth it, honestly.

None of them care no one does my existence is futile it’s meaningless pointless I have succumb to my purpose to be nothing but a pawn in their games. They should have k1lled me when they were finished with me oh I wish they did

Sorry 😢

Loving you @Bow

💜💜💜

Thanks @Eve7 feeling very unworthy of that at the moment

You are never unworthy @Bow that is a lie from the pit.

You are worthy, beautiful and deserving of a better future.

@Bow 💜💜

I had another session with my psychologist this morning. 2hrs. More exposure therapy work.

I knew it was going to be hard work, but didn’t realise how hard.

There are a couple of places that I still need to add more detail, but we have started reading, and in reading it I mean my psychologist reads it and I listen. I can’t even get through the first few lines before my suds go too high. So we have cut it into chunks. A few lines at a time and over and over and over again. This is going to take ages.

I have my cushion, my rock, I am tapping, I gotta work at keeping my eyes open, work at staying presents.

Going again tomorrow. 9am.

My heads in a bad place this afternoon. Punished myself.

You are showing so much courage and strength to just try exposure therapy @Bow

Give yourself some credit hon at the amazing work you are doing.

Here with you through all of this 💗💗