My Mosaic

When does it start to get easier @tyme ????

I can't answer that one for you @Bow - but for me, it got easier when I least expected it.... and maybe that's why it surprised me to so much

Feeling at the end of my rope @tyme

i so tired

Hearing you @Bow - I hear the pain, the tiredness. It really takes me back to not very long ago when I also found myself in that space.

Tight hugs for you. I’m here. You are not alone.

What did you do @tyme ?

I’m not sure. I think I gave up on trying so hard @Bow . I learnt that every time I ‘tried’, I actually causing myself to go backwards.

I threw myself into therapy and just did what they said even when it was hard. I learnt to ignore what I would naturally want to do, and did what was logically ‘right’. E.g when I felt very low, I made myself get out and be with people (my natural instinct is to hide)

But this was my experience. It’s not the same for everyone.

I went out tonight. End of year dessert night with the ladies from church. Please don’t celebrate the fact I went out, it’s not worth it. I sat in my chair, hardly spoke. Wished I didn’t go. Home now and have crawled into bed feeling incredibly alone and depressed

Hugs @Bow

Sitting with you @Bow

Don’t know why I even bother.

wish it was just all over