My Mosaic

I think you are a much valued member of this community @Bow

Listen to those who believe in you and prove them right.

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Hey @Bow ,

It sounds like a very difficult time for you right now. I’ll be sending you a check in email.

Speak soon, tyme

So teary tonight

Hoping sleep will bring an end

Hugs @Bow - you are precious.

May your tears be for the night, but you have joy in the morning. Even if it is to see your daughter's face 🙂

another absolutely shitty crummy day. Don’t know why I even bother.

Hugs @Bow - I'm here. Waiting and listening. What's happened today?

It was one of them mornings where I woke with that overwhelming dread that I even woke up.

I seen my case manager this morning. I didn’t wanna go, but dragged myself there. Could hardly get a word out. But did manage to get the words out that I have a trauma anniversary coming up and that I am not coping with that.

ive then had horrible flashbacks all day. Unbearable really.

Sorry to hear @Bow . I'm here if you want to talk - whether a distraction or to debrief. It's your call. I'm here 🙂

Hugs to you too.

Thanks @tyme

im not sure what’s going to help tonight. It’s too early to go to bed. And daughter is still up. But that’s where I wanna be now.

im also annoyed…. Disappointed. Suppose to see my dietitian tomorrow. Last in person appointment before she moves it all to Telehealth next year and starts charging a gap fee. She messaged me to let me know that she has to work from home tomorrow so has to do Telehealth. I’m not sure I’ll afford to see her with the gap fee… and I hate Telehealth too.

Telehealth is a bit different @Bow - It took time for me to get used to. But you'll probably find it weird (once you start) to go back to f2f. I find telehealth gives you some 'protection' because there's a distance barrier... whereas f2f can be very intimidating sometimes.

It's a change, but hopefully you'll get used to it.