My Mosaic

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@Captain24 wrote:

I have a day shift tomorrow and then 2 night shifts Monday Tuesday. I work 62.5hrs in 5 days.

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Oh gosh, @Captain24 ! And switching between night shift and day shift must be hard 😞

Thinking of you...

Hey @NatureLover

I have to follow my strict routine to adjust. It’s surprising because the first nightshift is the easiest. At least I got out of this weeks nights due to Covid. Now I have 7days off before I go back to work.

@Bow hoping today goes well for you 💕💕

I seen my psychologist this morning. It went ok. So much to talk about and catch up on.

sometimes I feel like I ‘present’ or appear more well than I feel…. If that is at all possible. I think I often struggle to verbalise what is going on inside me, the mess. My psychologist says I need things to fill my day, which I agree. I do need things to fill my day, but work? Or study? I can’t commit to that. I can barely function at the moment.
after my session I had every intention of coming home and tackling one of the bomb sites my daughter has created, but instead I slept. And now I feel terrible for the absolute mess my mum is about to come home to.

i talked with my psychologist about doing some volunteer work. That way I don’t have to commit so much. I mentioned the local shopping centre does charity gift wrapping and I love wrapping gifts, so that might be something that I could do. But I contacted lifeline already, and they aren’t doing it at my local shopping centre this year… instead a centre on the other side of town, which I didn’t wanna have to travel to. So that’s left me feeling a bit disappointed.

i skipped lunch today…. Went and slept. Which isn’t such a good thing.

Mum came home this afternoon. And we had dinner delivered by the lovely old lady from church, which was nice.

You must be so relieved that she is home @Bow. how awesome that the lady dropped dinner off for you guys.

Hoping you feel a little better within yourself

No @Captain24

😩

I’m sorry @Bow. What’s happening for you

Not sure what words to use @Captain24

I just feel so depressed. So down and flat. I don’t know what to do.

Is there anything you can do to distract yourself? I try to listen to songs of faith when I’m in a bad way. @Bow. There is something about the way they feel.