My Mosaic

Im so glad that they are monitoring your mum! It sounds like she is getting good care and being looked after.

Im not sure if mine was the medication or self survival. I don’t feel like it all the time, it comes and goes. It’s really an uneasy feeling

I’m really not doing ok tonight.

What's been happening @Bow ?

I don’t even know @tyme just feeling really overwhelmed at the moment. Panicked.

my daughter has made such a mess around the house. Her room, the play area, the spare room, the kitchen table. It’s all feeling really out of control. I think I need order around me and I don’t have that at the moment.

im super anxious about my appointment tomorrow morning.

I can hear that is stressful @Bow - kids and mess!

Im stressed about my sister's house. There's always kids toys everywhere. I get so annoyed. But i know it's beyond my control so i just walk off now.

You can only do so much with kids. I often tell myself to pick my battles.

Can you practice some mindful breathing now?

I just wanna go to bed and sleep @tyme want to escape.
I’ve been sleeping a lot the last week. During the day. Early to bed. It feels easier. Switch everything off. Escape.

Will you be going to bed soon? @Bow

Just crawled into bed @tyme not sleepy yet though.

house is such a mess and I know it will be even worse when I get up in the morning cause my step dad will cook himself dinner tonight and then just leaves everything. I know he can’t help it. He barely has the energy… and breath to cook. It’s just annoying getting up to that mess and having ti clean it up. There is a basket of washing that needs folding and putting away, plus another load on the line. My daughter made another mess in the bathroom while having a bath tonight. She then had a massive melt down cause she can’t find a particular toy that she bought home from her fathers yesterday. I refused to help look. She needs to start taking responsibility for her own stuff and her own mess. I feel bad that my mum will most likely come home tomorrow to such a messy house and she is in no state to clean. So I will need to do it. But I just don’t have any motivation or energy either. I feel such a heavy weight on me. Mum having a heart attack. My step dad terminally ill. My mental health terrible…. But I gotta hold it all together cause everyone is needs me.
sorry

Oh hun @Bow , you are doing the best you can, and so is everyone else.

I hope you find a space to be kind to yourself tonight. There is a long going on for you at the moment.

I'm holding your hand through this and praying for you that you will be comforted at this time.

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@Bow wrote:

I’m really not doing ok tonight.

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So sorry to hear, @Bow 😞

Sorry to hear about the messy house and your mum still in hospital and your own feelings of overwhelm and distress 😞

Also about your fears about today's appt with your psychologist...I'm hoping that it goes much better than you expect 💜🤞