My Mosaic

Meh get told to keep reaching out here and then told to step away

ill go

Ohh @Bow , sending you lots of hugs my friend xxx

dearest @Bow, I'm so proud of you for reaching out. We care about you and want you get through this time. We've sent and email to check in a bit extra.

Hey @Bow just checking in with you to see if things have settled for you, hope you have been able to get support if you need, as the previous moderator said, we are here to sit with you

Urgh still feeling terrible

i had horrible nightmares last night and couldn’t ground myself any other way than doing something that I shouldn’t. Paying for it today.

case manager called in this morning. Told her what I did. Told her I haven’t eaten in days, starting to really feel it today 😩

told her I’m thinking of other ways to go.

she asked if I wanted her to organise an admission. I said no. She asked me if I actually needed an admission. I sat silently.

She asked about ECT, I said no, I’m not having that again and explained why.

whys it all so bloody hard????
whys it all such a mess????

Why’s my head and body gotta constantly remember things that I don’t wanna remember???

I’ve got nothing @Bow.

All I can do is send you hugs

@Bow So sorry to hear 😞

Sending wishes for strength and hope... 🤞💜

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@Shaz51 wrote:

One of my scripts I can't get it as the order can't get through

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Oh no, @Shaz51 ! Really hope you can get it soon... 🤞

My case manager came to visit today. Bought someone else with her. They’ve had me admitted cause I have no desire to eat. 😩

I’m waiting in the ED for my bloods to come back. If they are all fine then I guess I go to the psych ward. Which I am really anxious about. I really have no clue what their plan will be to get me eating again cause the psych wards previously have been of zero support or help.
wanna cry.