My Mosaic

Oh yeah @Bow . So true! I remember that feeling good and proper. I really had no answers and the more they asked me questions, the more confused I got. And yes, a good way of describing it is 'noise'. Just plain noise. Wanting things to shift, wanting things to change for the better, yet not knowing what to do or how to answer these people who were supposed to have the answers...

I remember.

Yes I walked away on Monday feeling more confused than what I did when I walked in @tyme

i ended up emailing my psychologist…. She said it was ok if I didn’t know and didn’t have the answers and didn’t have the words. We are going to explore that a bit more next time.

just gotta get myself to next Monday

That's a very understanding response from your psychologist @Bow .

One thing I've learnt with my MH is that sometimes my therapists have been cruel to be kind. At first I'm angry about their decisions, but I later thank them, because I've been better because of those decisions made (that's my experience of course - not so for many others). e.g. once I asked for support from CATT and my CM refused. I was so upset at first. But later, I realised she knew I was ready to swim on my own (even if I didn't feel like I could).

Gonna head to bed @tyme safest place for me tonight. Thanks for keeping me company.

No @Bow , thank YOU for keeping ME company! Sorry if I shared too much.

I'll catchya tomorrow!

@Bow Sending 💜 and wishes, and hoping for improvement every day for you, even just a little bit... 🤞

Thank you @NatureLover i really do appreciate you stopping by each morning and your well wishes 💕

how are you doing??

Crappy shitty day 😩

wanna cry

wanna …

Hello hello @Bow ! Just logging in to continue our conversation from yesterday.

What's been happening? I'm just having a cuppa tea. You want a hot choc?

Shitty horrible day today @tyme

dropped meds off for them to be webster packed. Not what I want, but case manager is insisting it be done. Annoyed.

seen dietitian, first in over a month…. Since my trip and since hospital. Thinks I need a higher level of care at the moment. And just a difficult appointment in general. Talked hard stuff.

then appointment with case manager. She asked some pretty straight, blunt questions. If I had access to such and such would I take such and such… yes I would. Again talked about admission. Think she wants one for me.

sigh. Don’t wanna be here no more @tyme