My Mosaic

@Jynx Yea exhausted. Wish there was another word for beyond exhausted. I did close to 5hrs on the bike today. That along with what I took last night has left me feeling pretty depleted today. Miserable. Curled up in bed but too scared to close my eyes.

@Bow A big, hard day indeed. Could you read or something, until it feels like sleep will come more swiftly?

@Bow sending hugs and wishes for some hope and strength for the future for you 💜

Thank you @NatureLover you are too kind. Always being so supportive of others around here. Hope you know how much I appreciate your daily posts 💕

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I called community mh this arvo, not sure what I was expecting? What can they really do anyways? Told me to go for a walk. I’ve already spent 5 hours on the bike. Not ok today. Sigh 😩😩😢

@Bow ,

Sounds so tough. I’m sorry today is not an okay day.

Sitting with you tonight.

tyme

@tyme Tell me it gets better before it’s too late

Hey @Bow ,

All I can say is that there is HOPE. Hope is what keeps one going. I do not have a crystal ball to tell the future, but from my experience, things DID get better - but I needed to persist and just sit in the hardest places.

I'm with you,

tyme

Another one here @Bow who is proof that things can get better and stay better. After being suicidal on and off all my life, I haven't had any SI now for 14 years and my trauma is also healed a lot, enough for me to get on with my life and enjoy it (despite 6 ongoing MIs and a few chronic physical illnesses too). I'm 50 now.

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@Bow wrote:

Thank you @NatureLover you are too kind. Always being so supportive of others around here. Hope you know how much I appreciate your daily posts 💕

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I didn't actually know, so thank you, dear @Bow ❤️

How do you know when you are at the point of crisis? And that you need to do something before you do something that can’t be taken back? Before you act impulsively?
i seen my case manager this afternoon. She just checked in on all levels…, eating, drinking, exercise, mood, sleep, meds. All that stuff.
She wanted to take me to hospital, I said no. I know I’ve been there before I know I know the answer but my head won’t tell me. It’s got too much other loud stuff inside. Im sorry.