My Mosaic

Hey @Bow , here with you. 💜

Thanks @Jynx pretty rough day

ain’t seen you about much, hope yer ok

@Bow here if you need to talk about it, or if you would like to chat about other stuff too! I'm doing pretty okay, have been away doing a new course of studies, which has been pretty cool 😊 Thanks for checking in, means a lot 🤗💜

@Jynx Cool new studies, can you say what it is?

i have a trauma anniversary coming up and well… it’s making things pretty awful to be honest. On top of everything else that is going on it’s hard to keep going.

@Bow It is a course in psychedelic assisted therapy. A really promising field, though the legality is still a work in progress.

I'm sorry to hear you're on struggle street right now! Anniversaries can be soo so tough. I believe in you though!! We all got your back as you get through this crappy hurdle 💜

Just did a google…. Sounds interesting @Jynx , but yes the legality of it could be tricky! I’d be all for using CBD oil… for a number of diagnosis, but it’s so hard to get.

yeah just trying to survive each moment…

@Bow Yes the community is currently in the process of seeking a change from schedule 9 to schedule 8 - basically taking it back from fully illegal, to being legal for it to be dispensed by a pharmacist to a psychiatrist, but it still wouldn't be just something you take at home. The medicines are very potent and the set (i.e. mindset, the set of people around you) and setting (the environment you're in) are vital to the medicines being effective. This is the part I'm learning! How to sit with, attune to, and provide a safe and therapeutic space for someone in an altered state of consciousness. I hope that these medicines and stuff like CBD oil can become more readily available! I think they could help a lotta people.

You are doing great then, getting through. All we can do sometimes. What have you got on over the next little while? Stuff to help you keep busy, or anything to look forward to?

I have a friend in the UK, we are going over for her wedding in a couple of months, she uses CBD oil and swears by it. Really notices the difference in her depressive episodes and anxiety. She sent over a bath bomb for me to try…. I felt very relaxed! The big pharmaceutical wouldn’t want to see it legalised though. Which is sad.

got our big holiday in a couple of months, but when I’m like this, that just feels too far away. I look at pics of where we will be going etc, but it doesn’t help much. I hang out for appointments with my supports to help me get by, weekends are hard. Real hard. I do things that I shouldn’t.

Want a break from all of it. I just really wanna sleep. And sleep for a long time. Maybe I won’t wake up. 😢😩 tears tonight.

@Bow things are changing, but it's slow, and unfortunately Australia isn't as progressive as other places. I hope you do get to access any and all sources of healing that you need, whether it be CBD or even one day being able to access some psychedelic assisted therapy!

Want a break from all of it. I just really wanna sleep. And sleep for a long time. Maybe I won’t wake up. 😢😩 tears tonight.

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I really hear you. I'm here with you. Your tears are welcome here, and it is okay to feel this way. These heavy thoughts are ones that speak to me of exhaustion and overwhelm. I send big hugs and strength, but also restful vibes and the hope that things feel better for you tomorrow. 💜