My Mosaic

@Bow I'm really sorry to hear about all the confusion with the meds 😞

I hopoe you can get back on the correct ADs soon 💜

@moderator or someone….. just wondering when the help centre is back up?

Hi @Bow

I thought it was today but I will check for you and get back to you asap ❤️

hanami 💮

@Bow

It's today but it could be at reduced capacity. Thursday it should be fully up.

hanami 💮

Hi @Bow

I only get one weeks worth of meds per week from the chemist too. It is hard when the pdoc makes changes because then I have to go tell the chemist and give them about a week to change it. It does get frustrating at times.

I hope today has been a little better for you hon. Sending lots of love your way 💕💕

Thanks @hanami

@Snowie my chemist wouldn’t even make changes without a new script, which is really annoying cause if I forgot to ask whoever made the change, then I’m screwed.

i seen my psychologist today, I was in there nearly 2 hrs, but we talked about a lot of things. Finally talked a bit about my ex…. The whole reason I sought a psychologist 2 yrs ago. My psych has asked me to work on writing him a letter. I will give it a try. We also talked a lot about shame- that’s where the topic of my ex came in. I think I’m still a bit confused about shame though.
We tried to do some safety planning…. How do you safety plan around the thoughts that I have though? They are constant. My psych keeps reminding me that we have work to do… and that she needs me here to do that work. That doesn’t really mean much to me when the constant pain that I live with is overwhelming.

It looks like my case manager is probably going to be away all week, which isn’t good news regarding getting my meds sorted out. My psychologist is going to try and chase it up for me. And not great when I’m in a place where I really need that extra support at the moment.

I have DBT tomorrow.

That is a long session with you psych @Bow It sounds like you talked about a lot. I hope it helped in some way.

It is hard to sometimes think about our safety and planning to keep ourselves safe. All you can do is try to just take one step at a time. I know it is hard, I have been in that bad place myself, but all we can do is try hon. You are so brave talking about this with your psych and trying to get through the days. You show so much courage every day, please don't forget that.

I hope you can get your meds sorted out this week hon.

Is there someone else that can support you whilst your case manager is away? Every little bit helps

It's really hard @Bow. I'm glad you've got support around you and are engaging with that as best you can.

In terms of safety planning with constant thoughts. It's tough. It's clear to me through your words though that you are trying, and doing the best you can. Your therapist mentioned having more time to do the work- I'm curious, is there anything else you might like to have more time for? Feel free to share with us if you'd like, take good care of yourself and keep reaching out. Sitting with you 💗

It’s a bit hard not to talk about it with my psychologist @Snowie i use a recovery app and am pretty honest in that. I say it how it is. I find it much easier to put things in there, Otherwise I won’t get it out. At the end of the session she asked today whether we needed to do any safety planning. My silence was yes enough for her.
There is always a plan. It’s just where the intention is sitting at.., and it’s been high the last few days. In all honesty, surprised she let me go. She said she’d let my case managers team follow up with me? Kinda felt like she wanted to get rid of me by that point?

@TideisTurning I’m want more time for my daughter. I want to be well enough for this holiday in August- which im about to book our flights for.

It is a fine line between wanting to let my eating disorder run the show so that I can be the person I am desperately want to be…. And wanting to say goodbye to it.

hopefully someone from my case managers team will touch base tomorrow if my CM is away for the whole week- my psychologist was going to try make sure of that.