My Mosaic

Faaaaarrrrrkkkk I hate this feeling.

I’ve kept myself relatively busy all day today. Daughter has been home sick from school and cause of the weather here there is minimum supervision tomorrow, so another day off school and then 2 weeks of school holidays. We have been cleaning, sorting and tidying things up, making room for my brother to come and stay for an extended period of time while he has cancer treatment.
I’ve just sat down for the first real time this afternoon and it’s just hit me like a ton of bricks. The dread. The sadness. The despair I feel inside. It’s my birthday tomorrow. 39. And where is my life????

Haven't got many words for you @Bow but am listening and sitting with you hon.

Sending lots of love your way 💜💜💜

It sucks eh @Snowie

I don’t know if I can keep doing it

It does suck @Bow and sometimes it is hard to know the answer and know what to do.

You can do this hon, you are so strong and show so much courage.

I don’t know how to keep doing this thing. Living. It’s too bloody hard. SH every night. Contemplating S. it’s such an exhausting existence. I have to be strong for so many people, whom really have no idea of the crumbling mess that is inside me. It’s my own secret battle inside my head. They don’t see the wounds. They don’t see the constant arguments. No one does. I feel so alone. No one would notice.

Happy birthday, @Bow ! I hope I can say that, with how you are feeling at the moment... I hope some nice things happen on your birthday and it's a special day for you.

Morning @Bow, just a quick question, bear with me here...do you have a favourite band, food or country?

Thank you @NatureLover

@Former-Member hmmm chocolate maybe?
i apologise for not responding to emails last night- I took some extra meds and fell asleep.

No apology needed, just glad to hear you were able to do what you needed to make sure you were safe 💜