My Mosaic

Do you ever just get really sad after doing something stupid???

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@Bow wrote:

...and I just need to change the way I think.

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@Bow I'm staggered that someone who works in MH can just say "Change the way you think", like it's turning on a tap! 😮

I'm really sorry to hear about all your intense SH and SI 💔

Appointment with my psychologist this morning, but covid has hit her household again so it was a phone appointment 😩

I manager to some how post a copy of the drawing that wasn’t allowed to be posted here, into the app I use. My psychologist said it was an amazing depiction of what I experience and we talked through that drawing. We also talked about my SH and ways to ensure I get my fluid intake in.

I feel an overwhelming guilt today. I can’t go into many details, I’ll get into trouble here. But keeping things that I shouldn’t. I know it’s wrong. But. 😩

Hi @Bow

It sounds like some heavy mixed emotions today. Your drawing sounds incredible, I am so glad you got to share it with your psychologist.

If you feel it might be helpful, I encourage you to reach out to speak with one of our counsellors here about the guilt and details you are sitting with. Please know that you do not have to sit with it alone ❤️

If you are concerned about your safety, please reach out to Lifeline (13 11 14) or SCBS (1300 659 467).

Thanks @Former-Member but I’ve already tried that today. Wasn’t helpful. Feels horrible today

Sending lots of love your way @Bow 💕💕

I wrote some things down today that I can't share on here. Hopefully I will be able to share with psych.

Drawing sounds like a really good way to express what is inside. I hoped it helped.

I can’t share with my psych @Snowie she will have me taken away I guarantee

Completely understand @Bow There are things I won't share with my psych or pdoc too.

I am around if you need to talk about anything hon.

Can’t talk about it here either @Snowie id get into trouble here too. Just have to carry the weight of it myself. Just need to keep myself safe. Don’t do nothing stupid. Makes me feel sick.
I’m tired Snowie.

I can understand tired hon @Bow

Some days it takes so much out of us just to get through the day. By the end of the day we are just so tired of trying.

I know there are some things we cannot discuss on here. Sometimes it seems really hard to filter what we say. Sometimes we just want to blurt it out. Have you got much on tonight or tomorrow?