My Mosaic

Thanks @NatureLover a week between appointments isn’t that bad but when you are kinda desperate to talk.., if feels like forever. Maybe depending on what it’s like tomorrow I can give her a call.

Thanks @Former-Member

I’m really hoping that my case manager is in tomorrow. If she is, perhaps I will ask if I can come in and see her instead of be coming to me. I feel more comfortable and free to talk openly when I am not at home in ear shot of others and without the other person that she brings along- although last time she came she was on her own.

i went to the chemist today. Had to get a few supplies for my step dads return to home. I stood in front of the first aid section and just stared blankly. I don’t wanna keep SH’ing, but need to care for what I have done, but felt so lost and overwhelmed. I just walked away with I don’t care attitude about it. Maybe I will talk with my case manager tomorrow.

So sore tonight. Sad.

@Bow

💜💚💜❤️💛❤️

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@Bow wrote:

So sore tonight. Sad.

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I hope you can talk with your case manager today @Bow ...

Was brave today.

had to drop some paper work off at the doctors today for my step dad- we see the same gp. I asked the receptionist if it was at all possible to see my gp, she said no, fully booked. After some talking, being really vulnerable with the receptionist about why I wanted to see her, she asked me to take a seat and she would organise for me to see my gp.

i spoke with my gp briefly, arranged to come in for a proper appointment tomorrow morning and she also called and spoke with my case manager, who was available for me to go straight down and see. My gp said she will always make the time to see me if I need to- I was thankful.
I chatted with my CM about my SH, we talked about some alternatives, not feeling confident that they will be helpful, I’ve been here before and nothing helps, but I said I’d give it a go.

Although nothing has really changed and I still badly want to SH cause of the enormous amount of hatred, anger and disgust I feel towards myself and the pain inside, I feel a little lighter for having shared my struggle.

Hey @Bow ,

Yes, you certainly were brave.

You spoke up about about what YOU needed.

You were seen by the GP because you deserve to be seen and cared for.

You are here because you are stronger than you think.

We respond to you because you are worthy to be responded to.

You are such a valuable contributor on the forums.

Thank you,

tyme

Anyone around? Shouldn’t of done something and a bit panicked 😩

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@Bow wrote:

Anyone around? Shouldn’t of done something and a bit panicked 😩

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Hi @Bow , are you OK??

(Well done yesterday for sharing your struggles)