My Mosaic

Rough night hey @Bow? It sounds like getting some sleep might be a good plan for now. Sounds exhausting to be battling so much within your head. Hope you can get some rest 😊

I’m so tired. Took my meds really early last night and I was still awake for hours and then just didn’t sleep well. I’m tired of being so tired.

I have another week full of appointments. Tomorrow I’ve got an appointment with my community mh psychiatrist and I am so scared that she is going to take me off the meds she put me on that help with the nightmares…. They probably don’t help with my low blood pressure, if I could keep up with my fluids it would be better, but that’s a real struggle. My case manager will attend this appointment with me.

Tuesday I have a zoom appointment with my ED psychiatrist and then an appointment with my psychologist.

That’s just the beginning of the week. I’m feeling really hopeless. I’m struggling to find reason to keep going.

Hey there @Bow,

Oh no... sounds like the change in time of meds has got you feeling out of whack.

Sunday's are tough aren't they. The week ahead can often feel daunting. One step at a time, Bow.

If you need some 1:1 counselling tonight do reach out to your supports.

See you around,

Sphinxly 🧡

Feels a bit scary at how much anger and hate is inside today

I hear you, @Bow . I would imagine there is a sense of not feeling in control. Personally, I find anger to be a tough emotion to sit with. How do you normally allow yourself to express your anger/hate in a healthy way? My psychologist once suggested to scrunch papers up and throw them around the room. I found it helpful as it also made me feel like a bit of a kid too 🙂

Yeah it’s very unsettling tonight, not feeling in control and really impulsive. Not a feeling I’ve had in a long time.

@Bow Do you think it would be a good time to check in with some of your other supports off the forums, such as helplines? I hope you can find a way to get through until bedtime. Do reach out for emergency/crisis services if you're feeling unsafe at any point.

I'm heading off shortly but will be thinking of you.

Sphinxly 🧡

Sending lots of loving support to you for the coming week @Bow @and hoping you can sleep well tonight.

I have several appointments too so maybe we can check in with each other.

Nighty night

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Thanks @Former-Member @Eve7 another horrible nights sleep. Just don’t get it. Pdoc increased my meds 2 weeks ago, doubled the dose and it’s doing nothing to help me get off to sleep.

i really do feel so exhausted. My body is so tired. Slow. I’d really like to sleep for a long time. Have no responsibilities. Just sleep.

@Eve7 how did your appointment go this morning? Did you manage to discuss with them what happened yesterday?

i see my community mh pdoc soon. Just finished on the treadmill. Found myself crying while on it. Body so tired but needing to keep going. Torture really. It’s horrible. Just taking a moment outside on my swing chair. Fresh air. Looking at all my plants. Wind blowing slightly. Birds. Can hear the kids at the school down the road.

My appointment was ok. Thanks for asking @Bow . I have some issues to work on.

Hope the afternoon improves for you hon 💙❤️💙