My Mosaic

I’m not feeling great physically today @Snowie but depleted oh well

thats a lot of rain! I hope we get a bit

yeah I drop them off Wednesday morning and that’s it.

Sorry to hear @Bow that you are not feeling well

Are you able just to have a quiet day on the couch?

Are you going to foster some more kittens again?

I’m so angry. Fuming

had a call from my cm. Confirmed my 2 appointments next, my last psych appointment, wasn’t sure I was going, don’t really see the point but apparently he really wants to see me so he can ‘wrap things up’. I’ve also got an assessment for some values living group. Urgh.

then she said she wants to see me but said she ain’t got anything for next week. I hung up. I’m sorry but that fuck!ng p!sses me off. Her complete lack of care. She calls me back which I answer. But she just continues where she left off and said she couldn’t see me until the 14th.. that’s when I let it rip. Told her how disappointed I am. That she couldn’t even be bothered to call me after Tuesdays meeting… she said she thought she best not?!?!! Told her that she is fully aware of me not doing ok cause I’ve told her numerous times but she doesn’t give a shit. No one does to be honest. It’s all just a joke to them. There is no care.

@Bow

That feedback survey feels timely! It’s awful that the manager hasn’t replied and the CM hasn’t checked in on you.

Will you have the option of calling into Safe Haven today or tomorrow? I’m wondering if having someone hear what you’re going through in person might be supportive? Of course, if you don’t think it’s a good idea, that’s ok 💛

It feels like time has passed really quickly with the kittens. How are you feeling about having them booked in for desexing?

You have every right to be angry @Bow I would be too.

I'm sorry this is all happening to you.

Here if you need to talk/sit/unload 💕💕

@Bow

I’m so sorry! I think I was typing my reply to you when you sent your message about the CM and I posted it from the previous page so I didn’t see that you’d posted another message!

I’m stunned by your CM’s lack of insight. I’m angry and disappointed on your behalf. I wish I had better words to convey how strongly I feel about how badly you’re being let down.

How did she respond when you told her how upset you were?

Thanks @Snowie @Wintersweet decided to take D out for dinner. Needed to get out of the house. We went early so there wasn’t too many people around.

My CM didn’t really seem to care. I honestly don’t know what to do at this point. Yes that consumer feedback came at a good time, but it was all anonymous, I would have actually liked to put my name to it.

Maybe I could get to safe haven tomorrow or Sunday. D is ok to be left home alone for about an hour. I make her repeat the rules before I leave.

it’s a little sad having to say goodbye to the kittens especially when there is one that I have a soft spot for. But it’s nice to know that we held a safe and loving space for them to grow a little bit before going off to their forever homes. We make a beaded chain for each litter we have of their names.

I hope dinner was yummy @Bow Hopefully getting out of the house for a bit helped. I'm sure D enjoyed it.

If you can leave D for a bit perhaps going to safe haven might be good. I know in the past when you've gone that there was someone to talk to. Just getting some things out might help ease your pain a bit.

Hopefully the kittens find their forever home.

@Bow

Getting out of the house sounds like it was a really good idea. I’m glad you were able to. Going early is a good idea too.

Do you think it would be helpful to escalate the issue? I could help you work out who to contact if you wanted, although I don’t know how that would play out. I guess you could always contact them and ask what happens if you raise an issue with them? Or do you think it would be more helpful to focus on accessing other support (Safe Haven, butterfly foundation, maybe looking into step-up step-down services for when your mum is back?) and to wait and see what happens on the 14th and whether you can request a different provider for SWs?

I really hope you’re able to get to Safe Haven tomorrow and that they’re able to listen to you and help you feel heard/cared for 💛

Holding that safe and loving space for the kittens is so valuable. The beaded chains are a lovely idea for remembering them once they head to their forever homes.

Good morning dear @Bow

I hope you got some sleep last night.

See how you feel, but maybe visiting safe haven could help.

Leaving some 💗💗💗