I guess a bit of an update… amazing who will answer their phone when you put your number in private. Yes. I tried my sw, still no answer. I gave it another 1/2hr and I tried the team leader. She sounded surprised when I told her who it was. We talked for a few minutes. My sw was apparently on leave today. She gave excuses as to why I had no check ins. I did not believe her at all. Was all BS. She said she’d speak with the manager and call me back.
a bit later I get a call from the horrible manager herself. She told me that she had spoken with my CM and had arranged a meeting between the 3 of us for Tuesday. I had not been informed about of this. I asked her what the purpose of the meeting was and she said to discuss what support I want, what they can offer and their limits. I’m confused by this. But whatever. I asked her what support might I receive in the meantime. I told her I don’t know, maybe a home visit to check in or something. And she asked for what purpose? What’s the goal? Again confused but told her maybe some support or encouragement around eating. And she was like sure on, I’ll come out what time suits you? What the actual fuck? I don’t want her! But anyways, she’s coming out at 11am!
this whole thing is absolutely screwed. I have never been needy or asked for or expected too much from them. I always go by what my SW’s capacity and availability is. Which is generally one to two home visits a week and or a visit out in the community and text message or phone calls the other days. I dont ask and demand for more. Yes more was offered to me last time mum was away, but I definitely didn’t ask for it. The only thing I have EVER asked for is predictability and consistency. I need a safe place with someone I can trust and since April this year that has been been provided.
I again asked for me to be allocated to my old sw. This manager obviously had an issue with me being ‘selective’ of who works with me. This will be my 5 change since April. Why do I have to keep having changes. Why can’t I be allocated to my old sw and someone else experience the joy of disruptive support for a change?
I absolutely do not want this woman in my home. She has zero empathy and I can only imagine how she is going to respond to my desire to not eat. It’s going to be a bloody disaster.
and this meeting next week… if her plan is to exit me, then no you can do that without me. I know she is on the attack and I don’t want that. The only thing I have done wrong is voice my needs and then contact my old old old sw for some support and reassurance. She told me I could contact her. I can just see it now, I’m gonna end up in tears and then walking out. This has all turned into such a messy disaster and I really don’t want to be here anymore.
in regards to safe haven… I can go tomorrow before school finishes. I can also go Saturday cause D is at her fathers.
