My Mosaic

I haven’t seen my dietitian for a few months @Snowie my psychologist and CM suggested I contact her and make an appointment but I haven’t yet.

this morning I went down to my daughters school for education week. They had open classrooms and she was so excited for me to come and see. Had to put my big girl pants on and go. Parents were then allowed to stay and have lunch with students- I just sat with daughter while she had lunch and then she went off to play.

My SW then came and after she left I went and cleaned up downstairs and did some painting.

on the couch now watching tv.

oh yuck, spiders!

Maybe it's time to make an appt. with your dietitian @Bow I remember her being very supportive of you in the past.

Oh D would have loved that hon. It's nice how excited they get when you go to their school. My two used to love it. Well done on going hon, I know that would have taken a lot for you to do so.

Have you got much on this week? I've got the dentist tomorrow. Have a filing I need to get fixed.

Yeah I know that I should but there is that ongoing very strong argument inside my head @Snowie that just says no. Same with going to get my bloods done. With all the changes in my supports no one has really kept up to date with any of this and that’s really all on me, I should just do this stuff for myself but I don’t. It’s too hard most of the time. Urgh

yeah was an effort, but I know that I needed to do it for D.

groceries tomorrow cause we couldn’t do that this morning. Wednesday I’ll see my SW again. Thursday psychologist and then that’s it I think.

oh your bravery going to the dentist. I really need to but just keep putting it off. Never feel like they adequately numb me

It's hard when it all falls back onto us @Bow

I've got a slip to get my bloods done to and have been putting it off. Maybe we can go together.

I'm proud of you for going with D.

You have got a busy week coming up hon.

I always used to hate the dentist, used to put it off. Wouldn't go. Lots of anxiety around it. Until I had an appt. with a random dentist once and she was so nice and so lovely. She really cares about her patients. It's the only one I go to now and take my kids to see her too.

Yeah. Sometimes a little bit of encouragement and the offer to go with you can go a long way in getting hard things done @Snowie oh well. I’ll just see what happens.

oh maybe we could go together.

oh that’s good about your dentist. It’s so good when we find a good one.

I'll go whatever day for my bloods with you @Bow It will have to be a morning one as I have to fast for this one.

Is the dietician something that your SW can go with you to?

I'm hoping it is just one filing I have to get done tomorrow.

I have to fast too @Snowie I actually need to have a look at the request forms I have cause I think there are 3 different ones. I’ve got my regular electrolytes one that I need to do, then my gp gave me another one last time I seen her and then my psychiatrist gave me one. And I think I have to have an ecg with my psychiatrist one Urgh 😩 and I’ll have to go to the pathology clinic attached to my gp cause my electrolytes form is kept there on file. I don’t wanna have an ECG

My dietitian appointments are online. I need to email her to get the ball rolling with that. Ask her what appointments she has available.

fingers crossed it’s just the one for you tomorrow. I should call up to make an appointment cause my oral health suffers too when I’m not managing well with personal hygiene. Just don’t wanna be judged for it.

Can you get them all done on the same day @Bow?

At least then they are done and you don't have to worry about it for awhile.

Even with your dietician appts. On line can you have your SW with you?

I can understand not wanting to be judged. I think it was about 2 years since I'd seen a dentist. Only went because I was in pain every day.

I think so @Snowie I’ve gone in with 2 forms before and I apologized to the lady and she said it was fine. I’m sure there are some double ups too.

yes I’m pretty sure she’d make herself available to sit with me.

2 yrs isn’t too bad! I can’t even remember the last time I went…. And my mum will admit that it’s been longer. Think the last time I went I had a tooth pulled, they gave me the option to have root canal and they were just about to start and I was like wait. No. Just pull it. I remember reading recently that red heads need extra numbing cause we have a higher tolerance. That’s why it’s been torture!!

Why do i feel so much dread? Overwhelm and panic is sitting heavy tonight. I don’t know if things feel more intense physically cause my body is struggling too. Doesn’t feel ok