My Mosaic

Hopefully my psychologist is available Thursday @Snowie I have to call him in the morning.

tomorrow I have a gp appointment at midday and then my hospital follow up at 3. Gonna go have a wander around Kmart in between and yes I need to go to the chemist too and get my meds.

Finger crossed you psych is available on Thursday @Bow

I know it's really important that you see them asap. Hopefully they can fit you in.

Sounds like a bit of a busy afternoon for you hon. I hope everything goes smoothly for you.

@Bow I like the party section for some reason haha I don't even throw parties! And the Lego section too... bit dangerous going there after payday 😝

So more like historical dramas and stuff? Or all kinds, even fictitious?

Do you think it's just cos it's a new relationship, or more cos she's not your vibe/type of person? Do you think you could talk to her about what is making things difficult?

My ex is getting pushy about wanting access to D’s kids messenger @Snowie i dont like that it throws all my privacy out the window. Like she can literally tell him anything at anytime. Yet he gets to live his life how he pleases, he can do whatever he wants. He can cancel visits, go anywhere. I like that from one fortnight to the next he doesnt know anything.

But he all of a sudden whats to build a relationship. Wants her to tell him what she wants.

he has shown zero interest in this prior. She shows zero interest.
i know this is a me problem but i really dont like it. His a father for 9hrs a fortnight. 9hrs. He doesnt deal with all the crap that i have to deal with. The fussiness. The tantrums and meltdowns.
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Hey @Bow

It must be hard to deal with.

If he wants access then maybe he shoukd show that he wants to be in her life more.

I question whether he wants access to be in her life more or just wants to make it harder for you.

He has shown zero interest in her outside of his visits @Snowie like never has he messaged me to ask how she is. We separated when she was 18mths old. Never. But he will absolutely be the first one to play the victim card. He has himself and himself only for the situation he and all of us are in.

urgh

Must be hard @Bow

One day she will ask why you are not together. I guess,at her age you can't really say exactly why but one day she will want to know

Yeah one day @Snowie shes starting to be curious about things sometime. I have to shift gears or brush it under the rug. It sucks.

and I had to sign in again. So annoying.

im gonna make a hot chocolate. Want one?

It's signed me out a few times too @Bow

Hot chocolate sounds nice

Trying to cut down on coffee!

Already in bed watching TV

It’s annoying! Take it back to the old sign on I say @Snowie

I have a chai at some point during the day, either a hot or iced one. And then a hot chocolate before bed. And my energy drink. I really liked the pine lime one from aldi but it was for a limited time. That time went on for ages but recently ran out and I was like what will I drink now?! Then they bought out a peachy one- yuck. But now a mango mojito and that is delicious!

i experience a bit of distress and panic when I can’t get food and drinks that I like. Maybe just linked to my ED?

we are on the couch watching an episode of designated survivor and then D is going to bed and so will I