My Mosaic

@Snowie I hope your ok 💗

@Jynx I indeed fell asleep thankfully

Hi @Bow

A lot happening, unable to stop most

How are you?

I’m sorry hon @Snowie wish I could do more.

having a rough day. Had a gp appointment this morning, my SW was to meet me, but she wrote the time down wrong and arrived as I was finishing. Told gp how rough things have been, mood, food intake, showering. She makes suggestions. Told her about my new psych and that I wasn’t sure how I’d go with trauma work with him. She understood and then asked if I wanted to tell her about what happened. I said no. Talked about having an ect admission and how my dietitian and I talked about keeping myself well for that. She understood that.

had my bloods done afterwards. I was a bit dehydrated.

chatted with my SW for a bit outside. She asked how I had gone with showering, I said I’ve failed nd she asked how long. When I told her she sounded disappointed. Told her I’d go home and have a shower. And she had me message her once I’d done.

I had a long hot everything shower. Even found an exfoliant and scrubbed. Surely there was some layers of skin since I hadn’t showered in so long.

my heads just a real mess. Loud. Very noisy. Them voices ain’t nice. My gp made me promise stuff… but how do ya keep them?

sorryyougot your stuff, I shouldn’t of said all that

Good work on getting to the gp and getting your bloods done @Bow

Super big well done on having a shower hon. Just a simple task can be so huge.
It is hard to keep promises. Sometimes we just can't.

Told both my pdoc and psych I'd do something and haven't.

I'm sorry about you head and all the voices in it. Hard to silence them

If it helps saying all this than go for it.

I see (only telehealth) my psych tomorrow. I know she will ask the hard questions.

Thanks hon @Snowie

I see my psych tomorrow too

my gp just called… my bloods were a better today.

Glad your bloods were better today @Bow

You certainly get them back quickly.

I hope your visit with the psych goes ok. Will your SW be with you?

My SW is meeting me for a cuppa afterwards @Snowie

I just had a second shower for the day!! Mowed the back lawn and I was dripping in sweat and a hot mess!

@Jynx you there?

not feeling ok tonite

very unsettled

edgy

fear growing inside

need to remember to breath but keep feeezing

scared of the spiral and the noise

Nice one @Bow from no shower to TWO showers! Definitely something to be proud of!

@Snowie sending you both some hugs cos I know it's all very challenging right now 💜

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