My Mosaic

Even better that she is team leader @Bow Hopefully what she says goes and things are put in place.

oh hon I so wish that we could grab a coffee together too.

I have no one that would even think of me let alone ask me out.

Just on the couch this afternoon watching some tv passing time before I can go to bed.

Have to have an MRI tomorrow, Besides that not much.

Have you got any plans?

I’m sorry you have no one hon @Snowie that makes me sad. I’d be there in a heartbeat! Although I wouldn’t be much company at the moment.

oh MRI…. Everything ok? Totally ok if you don’t wanna share.

nothing on tomorrows. I’ll try and get out of the house with the SW

I think you would be great company @Bow

Even if we didn't talk much, just the company of someone would be nice.

My last few blood tests I've had some higher readings so MRI is just to be safe. Pdoc doesn't think anything is wrong, but just making sure.

Might be nice to leave the house for a nice reason. I feel like the only time I leave my house is to do shopping, an appt. or for mum.

Sorry @Snowie

really struggling again tonight. Dinner was a huge effort, didn’t manage much unfortunately. I try and bring the kittens upstairs after dinner to run around, something different, I really didn’t wanna tonight. Feeling bad that I’m not giving them as much attention as I normally would. But I bought them up for a bit. Dog is annoying. She goes stupid and is too rough.

im just filled with so much dread. Hopelessness.

fingers crossed everything is ok then. I had a brain mri last year, that thing is loud.

yeah I feel the same. Pretty much just go out for groceries and appointments.

Thats ok @Bow I fell asleep on the couch anyway.

At least you had some dinner hon, better than nothing. We had leftovers here.

I'm sure the kittens don't mind hon. Does D interact with them at all?

I'm sorry it's so hard at the moment hon. I wish I could help.

Oh my goodness, those 3 boisterous boys could steal my heart!! 🥹😍 @Bow

Are they now your babies?!

Also, how are you going? I would like any updates you have around your support team. I am hoping they have been able to show up for you this week. Big hugs. 🥰

Kinda had leftovers too @Snowie planning to try and make enough for 2 nights so it’s less stress for me.

D somwtimes will play with the kittens. I kinda like to be around though cause she can be a bit rough at times.

Hi @AuntGlow kinda surprised to see you pop up.

nope not my babies. Just foster babies. They all weigh in the 800gm’s now, so I need to call the vet clinic up and book them in for desexing.

how am I? I’m really struggling. My CM is finally back after being away for a couple of weeks pretty sick. My SW has been off this week. I did have a visit from my old SW and a PSW today though…. I had let another SW know I was struggling and having a lot of sh/si. So it was nice they came to visit and my old SW who is now the team leader has put in place daily home visits for me while my mum is away. Including the weekend and some certain areas for them to check in with me around.
I went and met the male psychologist this morning. It wasn’t bad. I was honest and told him I wasn’t sure how I’d go working with a male. So we are gonna just get to know each other for a few weeks… until mum is back and then early April where I will most likely go into hospital to have ECT. That’s the current plan anyways. Need to keep myself well and out of hospital while mum is away- she’s back the 28th.
it’s hard. I’m struggling a lot tonight

Hi @Bow

Sorry fell asleep last night on the couch again. H woke me up to go to bed! Must have been tired

Hoping you do get a visit from a SW today hon

Sending lots of 💕💕

Hi @Snowie

you must of been tired. I hope your mri went ok today.

I had a visit today from the psw that came yesterday. I guess it was kinda nice to chat with someone who gets it. But it was also a lot. And I didn’t really know her.

I also had a phone call from my CM. I was supposed to see the pdoc registrar on Monday, but they have a new pdoc consult and they want/need me to see him so he can write some of my scripts. Thing is his only in once a week…. Which means I don’t have an appointment until the 5/5!! Sigh.

been a long hard day snowie. My head has been so loud and I’m fighting a lot of string urges. Psw asked me a lot of questions today but I couldn’t always been honest- I didn’t know her. I bought all the stuff I need to make my market art up stairs in the hope it would motivate me…. But no. I sat on the couch all day. Lazy. Still no shower. Urgh

such a failure