My Mosaic

To be honest @AuntGlow i dont really know. I know everyone is pushing for me to be admitted and I think if I’m honest with myself that’s probably something that I need to try. But I can’t at the moment. My mum goes to Tassie beginning of March. I will agree to it once she is back. Until then.. I don’t know.

but today I didn’t get any chance to… I don’t know, talk, feel heard, feel safe amongst people who support me. Instead a new pdoc was sprung on me with zero notice and then of course she asks stupid questions cause she doesn’t take the time to read anything and then makes assumptions about me.

It sounds like more intensive care will allow you a safe space to be held and supported - is that right? @Bow

When will mum be back from Tassie?

And maybe we can brainstorm some interim support ideas? I know you are doing absolutely everything you can... but I think it's worth a shot? 🫶

Gosh, I can't even imagine how exhausting this must have been for you. Who is the safest feeling support you have right now?

Hi @Bow

Hoping today is going a little better for you

💌💌

Not really @Snowie

maybe I’ve just messed up too much and no one cares anymore

I know it's not the same but I care hon @Bow

Have you heard from your SW today?

I know. Thank you @Snowie i do truly appreciate you and your kindness and care.

nope. Nothing. Zero from anyone. Maybe they don’t wanna support me anymore. Maybe I’m just too difficult. Maybe I’ve finally succeeded at pushing everyone away

Sorry @Bow was just putting tea in the oven

Are you able to message your SW? I can understand if you can't. Sometimes we wait to see if they really care about us or are we just another pay check.

It can be really hard in knowing what to do.

Not sure what you mean by more intensive care @AuntGlow

Mum is away from the 11th-28th of March.

im open to brainstorming some ideas @AuntGlow if you have the time.

I’ve felt pretty crummy today. My SW is usually the safest person, but I haven’t even heard from her today, which is unlike her. Maybe she hates me now? Doesn’t wanna support me anymore.

What’s in the oven @Snowie no idea what we are having tonight.

we are about to head out to a ‘meet the teacher’ thingy at school. I don’t particularly want to go, but I know it’s important.

i can text her, but I don’t even know what I’d say? Maybe she is sick? But someone else would call. Maybe just punishing me.

Having Beef Ragu for tea @Bow Goes in oven for about 2.5 hours.

I hope the 'meet the teacher' goes well. Yep hard to go but hopefully it is beneficial in the long run.

I really think your SW does care. Maybe she isn't sure what to say. Doesn't want to make things worse.