My Mosaic

chose a wood look frame. New owner absolutely loved it @Ru-bee @AuntGlow

Lucky new owners, it looks great @Bow!!

Thanks @Ru-bee

SO pretty, you're very talented. @Bow

How are things in your world today? 🫶

Thanks @AuntGlow i dont do many like that, but i really enjoyed making it. A lot of hours.

things are really not ok. I’ve had a rough week and nothing feels like it’s gonna get any lighter any time soon.

comm mh offered me a choice of 2 psychologists, both male. I can’t do trauma work with a male. Sorry. They questioned me why I hadn’t present to ED for an admission and to start ECT.

my SW text me this morning and asked how I was doing today. Sent her a long reply not long after her text. Nothing. Maybe she is sick of me. Maybe I’m too difficult for her. Or just doesn’t have time. I was pretty honest. SI is very high and relentless and it’s hard to think about anything else. Hard to make all the decisions that I need to make. I’m tired of being tired. And then I have surgery on Wednesday.

@Bow It sounds like a really hard week! I'm sorry that you're going through this. Are they looking for female psychs for you now?

I hear things aren't letting up at the moment, what's been helping you through this week?

I actually don’t know what they are doing in regards to a psych @Ru-bee my CM said she couldn’t guarantee they would let me sit back on the waitlist for a female one and if they did let me she didn’t know how long the wait would be. She talked about having a session with one of the males, see how it felt. She said they might call me. So I don’t know. Perhaps I’ll find out next week.

trying to keep myself busy. Lots of sitting watching tv.

Mm I bet that uncertainty isn't helping much either @Bow are you feeling open to taking a call from one of the male psychs?

What TV have you been watching?

I think it’s really gonna depend how I am at the time @Ru-bee like right now, no. Spiral ing down

Not that she can do anything to change anything, but can I feel disappointed? It’s often really hard to put things into words, to be completely honest and vulnerable.
it doesn’t matter

people don’t care much