My Mosaic

Thanks @Jynx

nah, adjusted pretty quickly. Had a few moments back at home the day we got back where I felt the sway. But that was it.
both mum and I have had a couple of days where we have felt like we were coming down with something, scratchy throat, but hasn’t seemed to of developed in to anything thankfully. Yet anyways.

just now gotta get through the next month or so.

@Bow makes me think about how astronauts who spend months up aboard the ISS have to adjust back to life on earth - imagine your body forgetting what gravity feels like!!

Oh yikes, hope it stays in the throat, would suck to get sick, especially in this heat!

Anything on the horizon for you? Something to look forward to?

You got trauma anniversaries this time of year, am I remembering that right?

Oh yep that would be pretty hectic eh @Jynx wonder how cruise workers cope…. Those ships get turned around pretty quickly, sail in in the morning and back out in the afternoon… crew don’t get much of a chance to get on land. Couple of our servers were gonna get off in Eden and do a hike, but decided to sleep instead.

hmm well I wouldn’t mind a couple of days in bed to be honest. But definitely don’t want to feel miserable.

Does a house inspection count??? nah nothing on the horizon for me. Got a couple of projects I wanna do, that’s about it I think. Try avoid an admission.

yep. Them horrible things. Sucky time of the year. Body is starting to feel it. Lots of tension being held and pain. Pulled my spikey mat out this morning cause my sleep is being hugely disrupted now and I’m pretty stiff and sore in the mornings.

you got anything coming up?

@Bow I'm picturing them all swaying and wobbling, and looking quite drunk! Ahaha

Couple days in bed sounds amazing.... but a couple days sick in bed... different story, hey!

I mean in a way? It's something taking up brain space, something you gotta prepare for... do you have much cleaning and stuff to do?

Glad you got your spiky mat!! I should get mine out... But yes that is super rough, especially how it's creating such tension and restless nights for you. Morning stretches are always good too, and (totally just a suggestion, feel free to ignore) you could practice some progressive muscle relaxation too, maybe if you start building it into your daily routine now it could come in handy as the tension builds. Food for thought!

Not much till Feb, my bday month. Got loose plans to join my partner's little getaway holiday - her bday is in Feb too! And I gotta keep chipping away at decluttering, deary me!

Haha @Jynx imagine having police at the end of the walkway getting everyone to walk a line as they disembarked!

We don’t have too much I guess. Thankfully the real estate was accommodating and changed the date for us. Cause got an email notice on Christmas Eve (!!! Merry Christmas to us!!) For an inspection a couple of days after we got back from our cruise. Emailed back and asked to reschedule and got an automatic out of office saying they closed the day before (!!!!) and wouldn’t be back until the 3rd. Just plain rude! We did a council pickup beginning of December cause that’s when our inspection should have been. So just tidy up and usual clean.

used my mat again today @Jynx woke up really sore and it helped.

oh where is your potential getaway to? That’s exciting. Celebrating your birthdays together with a getaway

Afternoon dear @Bow

Hoping today is going ok hon

Sending lots of 💕💕

Walls gone up cause the world don’t feel safe anymore. Who can I trust when I’m falling to pieces. The road I walk, the secrets I hold feel so alone. It feels heavy. What did I do? Whose black book am I in? Images stuck in my head. Smells, sensations I feel bring me slamming back to that horride night. Please make it stop 🛑

Hey @Bow sounds like you're having a rough time at the moment hun. We're here for you.

What might be helpful for you right now in terms of support? 💜

Hard when nothing feels safe @Jynx not sure what I should be doing tonight. Everything feels big and fast and loud. I should ground maybe?

@Bow that sounds like a good plan hun. Sensory grounding? Got your spiky mat? Maybe some music or a scented candle?