My Mosaic

Yeah I guess the mental health system is just so very broken @Snowie it needs a lot of work. My CM quizzed me a lot about why I didn’t go into hospital like we had talked about on the 8th. And I tried to explain to her that I just didn’t have any support. She said that she had spoken to the team about what to say to the hospital to support an admission. And that’s all good and fair…. But I still didn’t have any support around the admission. It was all behind the scenes. Anyways. Maybe in the new year an admission will happen.

Yeah I don’t think my SW will be very impressed.

that’s why I need a psychologist.., among other reasons! Cause those beliefs are so deeply imbedded within me.

you like watching your sport eh?

yeah laying on the couch with a heat pack on my neck. Not very comfortable as it’s very hot here today. Got ac and fan on here

are you doing anything tomorrow?

I can understand wanting support around an admission @Bow

Is an admission to have ECT or for other reasons? or maybe both

It certainly is something you can look at for the new year with your CM and SW

Not having a psych must be hard. A lot is left festering just below the surface.

I do watch a bit of sport but mainly Aussie sport. Do watch F1 too. Have actually brought D and H tickets to go to the Grand Prix in Melb for next year.

Could never watch US footy or soccer

H is heavily involved in Ski (water) Racing too.

Have to take Mum up the street. Will do it in the morning, hopefully it's not as busy then.

Any plans for yourself?

Okay, well if something come to mind, please let me know. I am happy to help where I can. @Bow

I wonder if they are taking their time to respond? 🫶

I read your message to Snowie and wanted to say you did a lovely job of advocating for yourself and questioning gaps in their communication. Good on you for letting them know where they need to revisit how they share information!

Terrorism police arrested a car load of men who came up from Melbourne, heading to Bondi police. Potential fire arms in their car. This all occurred 20mins from where I live.

this is scary

in a bit of a panic

Oh wow @Bow I was gonna see how your week has been when I just saw your post. That is so terrifying, totally understandable that you're feeling very shaken!!

What do you think would be most helpful right now, do you wanna chat about it or would distraction be better since it's so raw at the moment?

Here for you 💜

@Snowie 👋😊

This has happened just tonight @Jynx i worked there. I’d park my car just around the corner and walk to the office.
is anywhere safe???
like you just don’t know.
you see certain people and there is this instant hesitation. I feel bad but you think certain thoughts.
I was wanting to go into the city… but that doesn’t feel safe.

our cruise…. We have to catch the train into the city

cant live in constant fear… but how can you not with everything that is happening????

@Bow I can understand all these intense thoughts arising hun. It can really shake us to our core and make it feel very much like danger awaits around every corner. It may take some time to feel okay again, and it's okay if for a little while you need to do stuff to help you feel a little more safe when you go out and about. Simple things like ensuring someone knows where you are/where you're going, or jumping on the phone whilst you're walking to/from places around the area, only going out in daylight hours, etc. can help us to have that extra layer of mental safety - like a safety blanket if you like!

It's hard when it's so close to home. Take it slow, and it's okay to take your time to 'get back to normal', if you will.

Good afternoon dear @Bow

Gee that morning went fast!

I hope today is going ok for you hon.

Sending lots of 💕💕

Hey @Snowie my dear friend

how was your morning?

really struggling with the heat today here. 43c at the moment. We had to change our morning plans a bit. Was meeting with an older lady from my church for morning tea. She’s lovely and has always kept in contact with us despite us not going. We were going to meet at a cafe with the majority of seating being outside under cover, so changed to an indoor place.
then spent the afternoon wrapping presents. I have pink paper with candy canes this year with lots of big bows and ribbons.

keeps ya hands busy… but my minds been constantly ticking over

Hey @Jynx sorry needed to log off last night cause I was spiraling. Didn’t end too well but today’s a new day, even though it’s been hard still

I been heaps disappointed in my fill in SW. my SW assured me that the fill in one would be great for me and knew everything. That she would be home visits like she did. The fill in one never called. Just sent a text every morning. I replied to every text except one, but I never got a reply back. Why lie about it? It’s shit.

how’s your day?