My Mosaic

Oh @Bow sounds like you have a very busy day hon. I do hope talking to your CM helps.

Ahh the wrapping, seems to take so long!!

I haven't been to the library for ages. Just seem to buy books instead.

You are so good to take D to the shops to get her Dad something. So many people wouldn't do that. You really do have a good heart ❤️

What might help you to feel more connected here? @Bow 💛

I actually tagged you in a conversation today that I thought you might be interested in. ☺️

I will be keeping my fingers crossed. Can you let me know?

oooh yum!!
I am seeing my mum and brother, and his partner's family. We have a very small family unit, so tagging onto someone else's haha

Good morning @Bow

Up early this morning, couldn't sleep

Just leaving some 💗🫂💗 for you hon hoping your appointment with your CM goes well this morning.

Thinking of you today

Thanks @Snowie

Pic just for you today

she’s got Bella on her shoes too! Hopefully she doesn’t want to rip it off her head once she gets to school. It’s heavy apparently!

@Jynx

OMG @Bow That looks amazing

There certainly won't be anyone else with hair like that

You always surprise me with your talents

I do hope it lasts the day!

Hey @Snowie D lasted until around midday when she had her disco and it started to fall apart. Her teacher helped to take it all off. She had a good day though.

I seen my CM this morning. Caught her up on what’s been happening. Told her about the zero support from the team in her absence. Apparently the interim CM allocated to me has been off sick the whole time. She came back yesterday and only lasted a few hours before going home. I explained to my CM that I thought that might have been the case but isn’t that what your team meetings would be for? Like where you discuss so and so is away who’s gonna cover for them. My CM agreed. She said that she was going to be discussing it with her team leader today because she requested face to face supports while she was away and none of that was offered.

text from interim SW this morning. I replied saying I was fairly crummy and struggling. And nothing. Sigh.

I think everyone just hates me.

how’s your day?

It doesn’t matter @AuntGlow nothing will change and I’d more than likely get in trouble for sharing. I feel perhaps this just isn’t the place for me anymore.

yeah I went to the effort to share some of my market experiences and got no reply.

yeah I can let you know. Nothing was said today when I seen my CM though.

Support button working today!!

Lasting till midday was great @Bow I'm sure it got heavier as the day went on.

I hope the disco went/going well

I'm glad you got to see your CM hon. It's good that she listened to you. The team meeting should identify who is without support and who needs it. Hopefully she does take it further.

Thats not good about you SW. Sometimes I wonder what they want you to do to get some help. I always thought it was about prevention and early help.

It may feel that way, but you are certainly not hated hon. Not on here or by me.

My day started ok. Got dog groomed, 2 loads washing and made it to shops, all before 11:30am. Except for a few things still to come online I think I've finished shopping, except for the food for xmas day. Have struggled this afternoon.

Yeah that’s what I said to my CM @Snowie that’s what their team meeting would be for. But honestly it’s no real surprise sadly.

My SW assured me that I would be well supported by this other SW while she is away. Like keeping to what she does- 2 home visits during the week. This fill in SW hasn’t even tried to call. Like she hasn’t even tried to build a rapport so that I feel somewhat comfortable in opening up to her. Will see what happens tomorrow and then my SW is back Sunday.

nothing ever goes right for me though. That’s why it feels like everyone hates me. Nothing is ever easy. It’s like pushing sh!t up a hill. Again it just reiterates all those beliefs that I am not worthy, not deserving of support. Why?? What is it about me that has this stuff happen all the time???

I’m sorry this afternoon has been hard. What you been doing to keep yourself distracted?

After my appointment this morning I dropped D’s overdue library book off and then went into the second hand book shop. They post most of their incoming books on their Facebook page and I had an Alice book put on hold that I picked up. Also looked for and found 3 other ones! Then I went and got some American dollar bills. Everything on our cruise is in US$ and most things are included but got some bills for tipping above our already paid gratitudes. They are all nice crisp new ones.

I somehow put a kink in my neck

It's a shame that this has become the norm @Bow that you expect this from CM.

I don't think your SW would be ok with how little support you are getting hon. Hoping you are able to tell her what it has done to you.

I can understand and hear your frustration. I get that too. Why does it always happen to me.

It's hard not to believe those beliefs/thoughts. It's so easily to think this way, yet so hard to squash those thoughts.

Ohh thats good that you found some Alice books to add to your collection.

Very exciting, getting some US money. I'm so glad you have this trip to look forward to. Hopefully it is an amazing experience for you your mum and D.

I've just been watching the cricket this afternoon. Haven't even got enough energy to clean.

I hope your neck is ok. Have your got a heat pack or do you need ice.