My Mosaic

Well I hope your SW does another home visit tomorrow @Bow

I understand about the tolls. We have them on some roads too. They do them up and then place tolls on them. They have almost finished upgrading the roads from out our way, but they are going to be tolled. Luckily we don't go into the city much and just try and avoid those roads. I don't know how people afford to use those roads everyday.

I would be saying the same to my mum. Pick you up at the station.

Tomorrow mums coming home and we are going through a lot of her things. Make piles to keep, to donate, to throw away. It will take more than a day but at least it's a start. Not looking forward to it but we have to do it at some stage. She's still got clothes from my dad who passed away over 10 years ago.

Oh gosh that’s gonna be a huge job @Snowie and I can only imagine how difficult it will be…. for both you and your mum.

yeah huge job @Bow but has to be done.

I guess the sooner we get it done, the better.

Somethings I'll keep. We have a few family things that have been passed down.

Hoping she wants to donate a lot

My mum has a lot of stuff… she is very sentimental. But was good when we moved and threw a lot of stuff out @Snowie

struggling tonight. bought one of the kittens up to snuggle with. But the dog was super annoying, wouldn’t shut up

I got a headache now

Dog is probably jealous @Bow the kitten getting all of the attention! No pats for me!

Hope the headache eases soon hon.

I had a pretty rough night last night. Worst in a very long time.

Mum is home later this arvo. I vacuumed but that’s all I feel like I can manage. Feel like my body is made of cement. Feels real heavy and exhausting to move. Mum bring away has been good in some ways… it’s nice to have the house to ourselves. It’s forcedme to not act upon the thoughts in my head. Would my mood be this low if mum didn’t go away? I don’t know. But now she is returning will things get better? Or will that safety net disappear? I’m safe night now, but it’s all very overwhelming. No SW visit today. Tomorrow I am due to go into comm mh to see my CM. I have a list of things I want to tell her. I hope I can do it.

hey @Bow, sounds like you're feeling a lil mixed about mum returning? that's totally okay. there's been times where my mum's presence has made thing better and worse, it can be tricky finding a balance.

good on you for making a list! i remember you mentioning that you're working on staying accountable with your supports, how's that been going?

Yeah @rav3n lotsa mixed feelings about mum coming home.

yes still doing the accountability thingy with my supports. Sometimes often lately other things have taken over though

i hope the transition back into having mum home goes nice and smooth @Bow, i've got my fingers crossed.

do your supports know about these other things that have been taking over? or is this apart of the list of things you're going over tomorrow?

SW knows @rav3n but CM doesn’t, but yes it’s all part of the list for tomorrow. I just hope she will read it cause I don’t think I’ll have words. She’ll have 2 things to read too. My list and my dietitian appointment summary. My CM is mostly against reading stuff