My Mosaic

Sending love and prayers. @Bow

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I'm feeling so many things right now. I had a visit from the hospital dietitian this morning. Different lady to the one that I've previously seen on a number of occasions. But she was nice and she listened to me. She normally works with kids who have EDs so she has understanding.
she asked how I felt about an NG tube. She assured me It would simple give me nutrients to help get me in a better place medically and mentally to be able to accept food. It's nearly a week now.
hospital has been hard.
She just came back and said the doctors have agreed it's the best right next step forward. I feel devastated and so many other emotions. I understand I need this, but it's bloody hard.
I had a lovely long message from my own dietitian, I've been logging things in the app that I have been using, so she has been tracking where I am at over the last couple of days. She talked about what small step I can take today towards recovery... and I guess agreeing to this tube will be it.
I wish nurses showed a little more kindness and compassion. I just feel like a nuisance and a waste of space. They are nicer to other patients.
I think I have a headache brewing now

Oh @Bow thanks for the update and letting me know you’d posted it here.

I’m sorry it’s come to this but if it helps get you through this rough patch it will be worthwhile. You are definitely not a waste of space and you deserve kindness at this time.

Sending you a big hug right now and assuring you of my ongoing prayers and support. You are not alone.

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Thank you @Eve7 I'm really trying to see it as a step forward and not a Step backwards. Yesterday was really hard, my blood sugars were really low too which they had to call doctors for.
I ended up napping really early in the evening, I had a headache and felt pretty lousy, hence why I am wife awake at 4am. Plus they woke me to do obs and check my sugar again- which was low again.
how are you doing? Are you back at work?

Leaving you some much needed squishy hugs @Bow 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

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Good morning @Bow

I’m sorry about your bsl being low but I’m glad you’re in hospital receiving the treatment you need.

It’s good that your own dietitian is so supportive, that’s a big plus. I hope today is better for you even if you do get the tube inserted.

I’ll be thinking about you and praying for you today.

I just had to sort out my meds as the chemist had given me the wrong dose!!! No wonder I’ve been sleeping so well.

I’m going to work for a meeting. Chat later.

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Just going to sit and take all these hugs right now @Anastasia . I feel pretty lousy after having this NG tube put in this arvo. It feels horrible. It hurts every time I swallow. I feel so self conscious. Just want the world to swallow me up.

Coming to sit with you for a while @Bow 🤗💝

I think you are very courageous.

Thank you @Emelia8 I appreciate the company.

Here's some more @Bow 🤗🤗🤗🤗💞💞

I agree with @Emelia8 you are courageous 🙏