My Mosaic

I’m sorry the ng tube is so uncomfortable but you will get used to it @Bow

Big, big hugs sweetie. You’ll get through this and be strong again but until then we’re here to be your support.

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Thank you @Anastasia @Eve7

I didn't sleep the greatest last night so feeling pretty lousy and tired this morning. I have to sleep sitting up slight cause the feeds go 24/7, just couldn't get comfy. My throat is sore this morning but @Emelia8 I managed to have a warm chai just now and was thinking of you. It was kind of soothing on my throat.

my dietitian messaged me again last night and said that she would be happy to check in with me daily while I am in hospital as she imagines I may need the extra support, which is really nice of her- I was suppose to see her today, as well as my gp. As of next week she is moving all sessions to Telehealth until we are out of lockdown 😞 goodness knows when this lockdown is going to end, I watch bits of the news and it seems to be getting worse with people not staying at home.

I will have to contact my ex today. He will need to know that I am in here, will not be telling me why, but my daughter is due to go there tomorrow and he will need to do both transports. I am super anxious about having to tell him.

I was chatting with a lovely lady on the same help desk last night and was talking about how up until yesterday I had been doing FaceTime calls with my daughter but I don't want her to see me with the ng tube. And wasn't sure how to work a way around it. She suggested just wearing a mask! Which I will do. BUT I will need to tell Mum what has been going on. Another thing that I am super anxious about. Haven't told her about the extent of my ED, the tube or anything really. I think she mostly think that I am in here because of an attempt and low potassium. I need to tell her more. I'm really not sure how long I am going to be in here for. The dietitian here yesterday made the comment that they will only weigh me weekly to reduce any anxiety around that for me, to me that says I will be here for a while perhaps??? My heart sank. The gastro doctors said that once I am stable it maybe a case of discharging from them and me being in here for rehab. I'm sure on Monday the professor will be able to give me a better picture of how long I may be here.

im going to go take advantage of my IV line being out- it was leaking, and take a shower with both hands! Before they put a new one in.

I do really greatly appreciate your love and support. It's been a rough few days. 💕

You sound as though you are doing a little better now @Bow and I am so happy about that. Glad you were able to enjoy the chai. ☕ Wish I could have been there to have one with you. Really good that your dietitian is being so supportive through your hospital stay. You deserve any support you can muster right now, as you negotiate a way through an incredibly rocky path. Keep up the good work, and maintain that positive attitude I now sense in you. Sending love and a big squishy hug.

Emelia 💝

No words just love and hugs and more of both sweet @Bow 💞🤗💞🤗💞🤗💞🤗💞🤗💞

Today has been a rough day. My throat has been so sore. I've recently had some prn meds which has taken the edge off the pain. But I've spent a lot of time today just laying in bed staring out the window feeling miserable. Need to be able to eat so I can get this tube out, but it hurts so much to eat. Hopefully I will get use to it.

I managed a choc milk for lunch- small wins.

I really miss my daughter tonight. Longest I've gone without seeing her. Tucked her into bed on Monday night and didnt expect that I would find myself where I am now, not having seen her since.

ive not kept up with everyone's threads I am so sorry. I've got all the time in the world but just don't have much energy to give.

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Hi @Bow thanks so much for posting an update.

I realise this is such a hard time for you and please don’t worry about catching up on anyone else’s thread as now is the time to focus on you.

I think you’ve been really brave to agree to the ng tube and it shows that you are focussed on your recovery which may take time.

I want to assure you of my ongoing prayers and support for you on this journey. Remember “If God is for you, who can be against you?....”

I think wearing a mask in your online contact with your daughter is a great idea. SANE counsellors are awesome.

I’ve just finished my usual fish n chips and plan to go to bed early tonight as I have an adventure planned for early in the morning.

Blessings pressed down shaken together and running out all over...,

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Thanks @Eve7

Oh do share what your adventure is this morning @Eve7 ! So that I can live vicariously through you!

I slept so much better last night.

I have woken to the news this morning that my ex has cancelled his visit today with my daughter (good) but it's because he is sick and in hospital, which I am freaking out about. What if he gets admitted to the same ward? Finds out I am here? And overhears why? Anxiety is high this morning.

I am pleased you slept better last night @Bow and sorry about your anxiety. It’s unlikely your ex will find you or know why you’re there 🙏

I got up at stupid o’clock to drive for an hour and go for a run. It’s just to cross an event off my “to do” list and I did it!

It was a stressful drive as the petrol light came on and I was a bit late so couldn’t stop then afterwards I got lost looking for a servo 😂 I am now enjoying a rather late home cooked breakfast in the sunshine.

Love and prayers coming your way

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That's commitment then @Eve7 driving an hour to go for a run! Well done!

I messaged my Mum today and told her about my ED, the ng tube and how I am feeling. It was well received I think. Mum has been supportive and understands why I haven't been doing FaceTime cause I don't want my d to see the tube.

missing her so much today.

todays hasn't been such a good day recovery wise, I've struggled. It didn't help that the menu lady came around and asked what I wanted. I thought that they had arranged for that not to happen.

Thanks @Bow I enjoyed doing that this morning but I am tired now.

Well done for telling yor Mum so much and it's great that she has been supportive of you. Did you try a mask for face time with D? Maybe send her an email?

You don't need the stress of menus at this time and I hope it doesn't happen again. I still think you are doing well...baby steps is all you need for now.

Lots of love and prayers...standing in the gap for you hon. xox