My Mosaic

Thanks @Snowie I didn't sleep well last night and my d woke up vomiting in the middle of the night. She seemed ok when she got up and still wanted to go to her fathers.
Not doing ok today.

hope you are ok?

Oh dear @Bow Sounds like you have had a hard night. I am glad D felt ok this morning and still wanted to go to her Dad's house.

Is there something you can do for yourself today?

I'm suppose to be helping Mum at a market today @Snowie but I'm sitting in the car. I can't deal with all the people. Feel terrible, told her I would help, but my anxiety is out of control.

I can understand you want to help your Mum out but you need to put yourself first @Bow

I can also understand not wanting to face people and struggling to deal with them.

Just take it one step at a time hon. Do what is best for you 💞

I wish I could just turn it all off. Switch the noise inside to silent. It feels so loud today.

They say that everything happens for a reason and that there is always hope after the storm.

I’m still searching for that reason

The reason behind what happen as a little girl

The reason behind what happened as a preteen

The reason behind what happened as a young adult

The reason behind what happened just this year.

I didn’t know what hope was when I was a little girl

I buried it beneath a mask as a preteen

I lost it when I was a young adult

I gave up ever finding it again just this year.

I’ve never felt more crippled and despaired than when I had lost all hope.

@Bow here and listening hon

Lots of love and hugs sweetie 💜💚💛💙

Wish I could keep myself out of trouble and safer

Sorry you feel like this @Bow

💜🤗💜🤗💜🤗💜

Takes a lot to get to the point of needing to turn mental pain into physical pain. The overwhelm. The noise.