My Mosaic

ohh okay that's good you'll see her on Thursday too, hopefully you get to have a lil chat with her tomorrow too. @Bow i'm so sorry that the SH and SI are increasing, i know it must be scary experiencing those heavy thoughts. i'm here for you.

i know you don't want to open up about the situation with a stranger, but talking about those heavier thoughts and feelings without going into detail of the situation is still possible and i really do encourage you to reach out to Lifeline 13 11 14 or SCBS 1300 659 467.

i'm also going to send you a quick check-in email real soon so keep an out for that.

I’m really struggling to get out of this funk, triggered by the incident on Monday. Still shifting between moments of panic and being scared or being annoyed with myself.

I went to my group today, I spoke with my SW briefly. She asked me heaps of question, the usual ones. I’m not sure if she believed me though, couldn’t maintain eye contact with her- think she’s picked up that that’s when I’m not much honest. I’ll see her tomorrow for a cuppa.

I sat quietly and finished my calendar today though.

Hey @Bow ,

Sorry to hear things are a little urghhh at the moment.

I haven't read about Monday's incident, but it's totally okay for you not to repeat it (if you have shared it)

I'm glad you SW spends a lot of time with you to hear you and 'read' you I guess.

How is schema therapy going?

I LOVE your calendar! Thanks for sharing. So it is one long calendar.. like each month is connected to the next using rings? Looks awesome! Are you going to keep it or give it away?

@tyme I was waiting for my schema group to start and a male completely exposed himself to me. twice

i stayed for group but did not get much out of it. was very triggered

calendar is a flip calendar. Think I will keep it

I have to try and not sound surprised @Bow . I'm sorry this happened. It is understandable you felt triggered.

Give yourself credit for even staying there for the session. I think we sometimes don't remember to give ourselves the credit we deserve.

I'm glad you will keep your calendar. It looks so lovely. @Bow

Do you have much on tonight?

Yeah, there are all sorts of folks in community mh clinics @tyme but yeah. I did not feel safe there.

the 2 group facilitators were very kind and supportive. And one stayed back at the end and did some safe imagery with me.

not much on tonight. Just on the couch watching tv. I painted for a bit this afternoon.

what you been up to the last couple of days?

I'm glad they were able to support you @Bow .

As for the last couple of days, I've been pretty busy just 'doing things'. I'm on a drive to get paper work done, plus further studies in MH, plus research.

I'm on this DRIVE to just keep going but I know I need to tell myself to take a break.

So yeah... that's my life in a few sentences.

I've been loving the weather lately though.

@Jynx You around tonight friend?

Hiya @Bow sorry I didn't get a chance to reply, I was helping out moderating the webinar! How are you going today hun?

Fairly crummy this arvo @Jynx

And my psychologist cancelled on me today. Kinda needed that debrief today