My Mosaic

I seen that coming @Jynx ….. changing my relationship with my body and weight 😩 I don’t know how…. Don’t know if I can ever accept and be happy with how fat I am.

it’s so hard to talk to my supports when all I get from them is …. ‘You know what you need to do’. …. ‘ you know you need to eat, you know that if you keep going the way that your going your going to end up in hospital.’

yep I know all that. But can’t, don’t know how, don’t want to…. Do any of it.

that’s why I’m so tired. Exhausted. Want to give up. Don’t have anything left in me

@Bow it is hard to alter our thought processes and untangle ourselves from social constructs of shame and stigma. I used to have a lot of shame and anxiety about my body too, used to get teased a lot for my weight - a lot shifted for me when I moved focus away from how I looked, and focused on the feelings side of things instead (both the emotional experiences, and the physiological experiences of bodily sensations and pleasure). Perhaps looking into some somatic therapies could help you explore this aspect of yourself?

I'm about to hop off for the night so I will bid you a restful evening! I hope you get off to sleep okay hun, catch you next time. Hugs! 💜🫂

Ello @Bow ! I'm just popping in to say hi 🙂 Hope to catch up with you over the next few days.

Be nice to catch up @tyme

Think everyone is just sick of me. Only one answer for that 😩

That’s not true @Bow

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I'd like to second that @Eve7!

We're here with you @Bow

@Bow definitely not true! Could never get sick of ya 😉

Little concerned about the 'one answer' - are you feeling unsafe at the moment hun?

Had a home visit with my SW today and just some things she said makes me believe that she’s starting to get sick of me. My CM obviously is. @Jynx @Ru-bee @Eve7

Hey @Bow ,

I'm sorry you feel your SW may be 'sick of you'. How often does she see you? I wonder if it's compassion fatigue? I hear how much she cares about you.

At the same time, she may not be sick of you, but just be having a bad day? Could that be a possibility?

Does the schema work you have been doing relate to any of these thoughts?

Hugs to you Bow. Here if you need a chat 🙂