My Mosaic

I’ve just taken my meds @tyme @Snowie I took my 4pm meds that I forgot to take too as some extra. I just really need for them to actually work tonight and make me sleep. I don’t want a repeat of last night where I lay awake for hours thinking on when where and how.

I really hope your meds work tonight @Bow and you can get some sleep 💗

I'm also here @Bow if you need anything between now and going to sleep.

Crummy crummy crummy day

my support worker called me early early to remind me that I needed to get my

bloods done. She meet me there. We talked a bit cause yesterday was such a bad day too. She was going to call comm mh and give them a bit of an update, i informed her that my CM was back.

my CM called me. She’s going to come see me Saturday.
my SW came to visit in the afternoon, she’s now away until Tuesday.
gp called, bloods still bad so more medication and repeat bloods Monday. My SW will organise for someone else to meet me for my bloods on Monday cause she knows that I won’t go otherwise.

this is what I am so tired of. I want to run away. It’s not a crime to go missing is it? Just disappear.
my head is so bad. the thoughts are plaguing me. They don’t stop. I’m so close to the edge

Huge day for you @Bow both physically and mentally

Here with you 💗💗

Here for you too @Bow .

I hear how an escape seems more enticing. And I can certainly relate. I think that's why I packed up and left to another state (PS, i'm not asking you to do that). It only took a few weeks for me to realise I couldn't run away from myself....

I hear you want to run. I hear how hard it is. I hear how close to the edge you are.

That's why we are here for you.

Yeah but I could run away from everyone else @tyme no more blood tests, meds. I could just be left to do what I want.

Monsters are real and ghosts are too.

they live inside us

and sometimes they win

Are you safe @Bow ?

Please email us if you need a chat.