My Mosaic

@amber22 @tyme I’m frustrated. I’m exhausted. I’m tired of fighting and not getting anywhere. The destructive hopeless part of me is very loud and controlling at the moment and I don’t feel much like things are going to change. I told my psych that I spend so much time thinking about when where and how. It’s all consuming. And sometimes it’s downright scary.

@tyme yes I do find it easier to write. But unfortunately despite my psych knowing that it’s my preferred way she doesn’t seem to be very receptive. If I show her stuff I’ve written she will ask me to read it out. Or she doesn’t just seem very interested in reading it. My old psych was so good that way. I also took that painting in today, the one of the storm and the little girl. I showed her that…. I tried to explain what it meant and we used it a few times throughout the session. But I’ve just had enough.

You tried @Bow that is all you can do. You should be proud of yourself for that.

Sending lots of 💗

@Bow ,

That's tough that your psych doesn't go by your preferred communication method.

I can see how difficult that gets.

I remember in my sessions, when I had pretty much shut down, he would write on paper and pass it over to me to read. We didn't do any talking. He just wrote, and I read it... I still have some of the papers. It was so so effective for me at that time because I had already shut down.

Thanks @Snowie i did indeed try. I just feel so disappointed and discouraged.

yeah @tyme sometimes all I need is for her to read something small…. To open up whatever is going on. Then that might help me to get talking. But sometimes she just really doesn’t want to.

I'm so sorry to hear that @Bow

Would you ever raise it with her?

She knows @tyme my old psych told her, I’ve told her. I’ll keep persisting. If there is stuff I need her to read I will keep trying.

Please don't feel discouraged or disappointed @Bow You are doing the very best you can. That is enough. I think sometimes we expect too much of ourselves.

I had a nurse in hospital talk to me about what I would say if I was talking to someone else. I knew I was being hard on myself, I just didn't realise how much I was punishing myself for something I couldn't control.

I hope you can come to an agreement with your psych that benefits you.

I don’t like it when people use that on me @Snowie ….. what would you say to a friend going through the same thing… or what would you say to your daughter. I usually shut down.

I’m really not ok tonight.

I find it really hard when people use it on me too @Bow

I wasn't really sure of how to react to the nurse.

I can understand just shutting down.

I'm around if you need to talk or just sit tonight.

Oh hun @Bow .

I'm sorry you are not okay.

Is there something we can do to you support you at this time?

Would lighter chat help?