My Mosaic

Hey @Jynx ! Happy Thursday!

I had to google a slap chop! But yes one of them kind of gadgets. Mum got one last year, I have no idea why. But she got a free one with it. It sat around for ages and then she put it in the vinnies bag. You should totally invest in one!

mmmmm sugar sandwich! Yum. Speaking of sugar on a sandwich, I do like a banana sandwich with a light sprinkling of sugar! And I have had them belvita biscuits before, they are pretty tasty.

I didn’t make a sign no, but this is todays art work…

 
I’m okish today. I managed to speak with the dietitian today and she is going to organise a weekly menu thing for me so I can choose my food! Hopefully then I can start working towards getting out of here. The dietitian increased my fed rate again today and I am currently really struggling with that.

@Bow hehe happy Thursday indeed!

Haha yep, hearing that your mum never used hers and ended up donating it is high praise, obviously I should go get one! 😋 Just messin!

Actually the reason I probably wouldn't go for a slap chop is that cooking is one of my fav mindfulness activities! I find the rhythmic motion of cutting up veggies and stirring the pot to be quite therapeutic haha. Actually, last night I got so lost in cooking that I didn't even realise how long I was in the kitchen - ended up finishing at 4am, with my back aching from standing over the stove for so long 😅

Oh wow! That is really fricken beautiful Bow, I love it! And such lovely words too 😍 Reminds me of one of my mantras 💜 I will have to find my old journal in which it is written so I can share it. Yours is one I could so easily picture being sold at a local art market! Your art is just so lovely hun, truly incredible. I have been meaning to print out the fox you did for me for aaaages! But I keep forgetting, blasted executive dysfunction and all that. I'll set a reminder 😉

Aww yay I'm glad your dietician was happy to help you get a menu all picked out! So important. The rate thingy, is that for the NG tube? I'm curious about how it feels to have it increased, but I am sorry that it is creating struggle for you. Sending some huggles🫂

Haha I did wonder if you found chopping food into tiny pieces therapeutic @Jynx ! Strangely I remember a time at home sitting at the kitchen table chopping a block of cheese into tiny tiny pieces for Mac and cheese…. I guess it’s that repetitive motion? Seeing how tiny I could get it without chopping my fingers off!

and wow 4am! What did you cook??? Do you then hate the mess? Do you have a dishwasher? When I am in the mood I do like to cook…. But the mess! Especially cake decorating…. Cleaning up buttercream is a nightmare, so greasy.

thanks…. I’ve been enjoying doing some art. I’m working on another one too. Went down to the little gift shop this arvo and bought a packet of ridiculously overpriced coloured pencils! But oh well. I’ve thought about doing some gift cards and see if I can sell some.

yeah the rate is for my NG feds. It started off so small. And it’s been increased every day after they get my bloods back- make sure my body is coping with intake. It was a big increase today. It’s a lot of distress. The machine pumps every 10seconds… I often lay and count 😩 it’s the kalories. Knowing it’s going directly into my stomach. All those vitamins and minerals. Things to make me well. I’m hooked up to it 24/7. The dietitian told me today, that prior to todays increase, it wasn’t anywhere near the amount that I should be getting each day… that was actually really hard to hear. And it’s hard to watch me go through bottles of fed quicker too. It really is loud and messy in my head at the moment…. And not really anywhere for it to go- except at my dietitian. My poor private dietitian will open my recovery record and see my massive brain dumps multiple times a day!

I just managed a tiny bit of minestrone soup! But it was very….. flavourful! A bit too much on my dead tastebuds.

how was your day today?

@Bow haha yep that's it! Repetitive motion, and it uses up just enough of my brain power (i.e. like you say, not chopping my fingies off!) to mean that my mind doesn't wander like it usually does.

I was prepping stuff for a ramen/stir fry for tonight, so just frying up some mushrooms and carrots. I found this super tasty Korean Bulgogi marinade which caramelises soooo well, I can't wait to put it all together tonight. And I don't actually have a dishwasher, no! It SUUUUCKS. I tend to leave things to soak a lot... this is me:

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Then when I have no cutlery left I will do a load of dishes! I wish washing up was as mindful for me as cooking, but I tend to just pop my ipad up on the windowsill above the sink and chuck a mindless tv show on while I do it.

Hell yeah, treating yourself to some art supplies, as well you should! Hope you can sell some and you can make back your pencil money hehe 😎

Hey I'm glad that your thoughts and feelings are able to go somewhere! I imagine your dietician will appreciate your honesty. It's always easier to decide next course of action when everyone is on the same page.

Oh yay for being able to have a bite! Aww haha yeah minestrone is a pretty powerful flavour, even though it packed a punch did it still taste good, was there even a little moment of enjoyment in there?

My day has been pretty chill so far, went for a walk before work and will finish cooking after. Also need to do some cleaning, got an inspection coming up 😑 Just wish I had a proper vacuum, it's hard to do a whole house with just a wee dust-buster 🙃

Oh dishes do suck @Jynx i hate them! So thankful we have a dishwasher, but it’s a cheap and nasty one and half the time it doesn’t clean the dishes properly.
Haha I love that cartoon…. That would be me too. I’m all for soaking dishes…. But mum likes to scrub them and get them out of the way.
Gotta be careful your iPad don’t fall into the sink though!

Nah I didn’t really enjoy the soup. It was just too much tonight. I really don’t wanna have to resort to bland foods… cause that really ain’t me, I do like flavour. Gonna have to just take it easy.

inspections suck! I hate them, but thankfully our real estate has never done one 😂 and we have been in our place for a few years now. Their office is close to the city… over an hour away so guess they don’t wanna come out here!
Oh I bet it’s hard with just a dust buster! Do your cats make a mess? Mine cart litter everywhere, when they wrestle fur goes flying. I have dark carpet in my room and I vacuum every second day cause there is constantly fur.

@Bow bahaha omg it actually did fall into the sink once! Thankfully I grabbed it before it could sink and get water into the electronics, but it was a close call! Turned it off immediately and wrapped it in paper towel. Still works! Phew! Ahhh the perils of having poor proprioception (awareness of body in space, aka I'm very clumsy!).

Hmm yeah would suck to have to resort to bland foods. Maybe starting with bland, and then when it's sorta... yuck, you can see if there's a part of you that craves flavour, and embrace it and promise you'll provide it something tasty! And slowly build up to more flavourful foods. Even starting with just like... idk some hot chips? They're not not flavourful, but certainly a less complex flavour profile than minestrone!

Haha lucky! I hate inspections buuuut they also do provide an external deadline to ensure I clean my house. Like I keep things hygeinic but also very cluttered and untidy, so it's a good reason to get stuff in order.

Haha yeah my bathroom where their litter trays are is my next stop on the cleaning schedule! They manage to fling litter EVERYWHERE. I think cos their fur is generally grey (Trixie obviously isn't, but funnily enough when you get her orange, brown, and white fur all in a ball it looks grey cos it's all mixed together) it camoflages with the carpet. All my clothes though? Well let's just say this is inredibly accurate:

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😂😂😂😂 oh @Jynx have to tell you a funny story! When my little bro was a teenager he was a brat and would run away from home all the time. We had to report him missing to the police multiple times. One day the police came out to our place to take down all the details and the officer in her navy blue pants sat on the lounge that the cats frequent. We giggled as she walked back to the car absolutely covered with cat fur on her butt!

I have one of them sticky lint rollers in my car…. Not much use de-catting myself in the house cause fur would somehow get stuck back on me. Would do it once I parked at work.

you can hear when my tabby cat is in the tray….. it’s like he is digging to China. Have thought about one of them enclosed trays.

yep inspections do force you to have a bit of a clean and tidy. I recently got one of the blue ultraviolet torches…. My ginger boy has had bladder issues and was peeing on the floor and the torch shows it up. But it showed up how grubby the kitchen and bathroom is too 😳 I was like WOW… mum told me to put it away! Lol

hopefully I’ll be able to do my menu tomorrow and get myself a plain boring cheese sandwich for my lunches. At this stage in my recovery that is usually my go to safe lunch food. A yoghurt for breakfast.

oh that was lucky with your iPad!

@Bow bahaha oh that would have been a very funny sight!

Omg when Trixie uses the tray it's like she is in a zen sandbox or something, she spends soooo long scratching about in the litter - and of course often chooses to do so right when I've gone to bed. The soothing sounds of cats pooping, yeah that'll help me sleep! Hahaha

Oh my, I'm almost too afraid to do that - Razz has a habit of peeing on stuff whenever she's stressed. Been a nightmare having to hand-wash my blankets all the time! Maybe I'm better off not knowing 🤣

Nice one! Hey never underestimate the power of solid comfort food, and a cheese sanga is deffo on that list for me too! Will it be toasted? Always better if it's toasted. Then maybe you can work up to a toasted cheese sanga dipped into the soup! I always love doing that.

Well I'm hopping off shortly, so I will bid you goodnight! Hope that you have a restful evening hun, and dream of kitty cats purring 😊😻💜

Sending love @Bow and thanks for last night

Afternoon @Bow

Hoping things are going ok hon.

Sending lots of 💕